​standstill

[Intro]
Day to day
Catch a break
Stalemate
It feels like I’m falling behind

[Verse 1]
Can't turn my effort
Into a dollar
My time is wasted
All 10,000 hours

Write down my problems
That doesn't solve 'em
Curse my ambitions
Why even have 'em

The takeaway, the lesson
Is to never be an optimist
If there's a chance that you are gonna
End up disappointed

The definition of insanity is repeating previous actions
While expecting something different to happen

[Chorus]
I'm always at a
Standstill for so long
Bеfore I even
Gеt help, right wrongs
It's all the same
Protecting others' mental health
When I don't even like myself
It's time to put an end to the charade

[Verse 2]
Last night, the devil in the corner of my room
He whispered in my ear
That I suck, should give up
Ain't no way that I'm enough
For your time
But I don’t mind
'Cause I hate falling in love anyway

If I'm overthinking everything I do
Then maybe it's a sign I shouldn't be
Messing 'round with paper hearts
If in the end we're torn apart
So stop before you start with me

[Chorus]
I'm sorry, I gotta
Standstill for so long
Before I even
Get help, right wrongs
It's all the same
Protecting others' mental health
When I don't even like myself
It's time to put an end to the charade

I can't stand still

[Bridge]
Guilty conscience tails behind and brings comeuppance like a demon (*cough*)
Is it karmic retribution, or what I was taught I should believe in? (sigh)
That the good get paid in wishes, so I must be messed up in the head (It come with nickwuh)
For putting years of my life into pointless habits, and I'll starve myself to death (Ayy)

And my tendency to hyper-fixate if given a modicum of attention (Brrr, woo!)
Too much to work on, too much to process
Yet over-stimulation remains one of my vices (Yuh)
Volume up, never take my eye off devices (Ayy)
Make a choice, but I cannot limit options (Ay)
Can't afford to be indecisive in a crisis

Isn't it late to pull through?
All my mistakes I can't undo (Undo!)
Guess it's better to say it out loud
Instead of writing apologies long overdue (That's probably facts!)

I know I'm good for something, but you make me feel like an impostor (Sussy!)
I still got so much more to say, but I'll save it for later (Okay)

Day to day
Catch a break
Stalemate
It feels like I’m falling behind

[Chorus]
'Cause I
Standstill for so long
Before I even
Get help, right wrongs
It's all the same
Protecting others' mental health
When I don't even like myself
It's time to put an end to the charade

I can't stand still, oh

[Outro]
How long can I hold
Onto nothing but hope
At least I'm not alone

'Cause I've got all of you
To turn black skies to blue
And when I fall you help me up and carry me through