​​something to live for

[Intro]
Ooh, holding the weight back
Don't mind that I do 'cause I hate that
I cover it like deuce in a rainstorm
I don't mind watching new for it break morning
Ooh, holding the weight back
Love fire, how it turn into a blank ash
Thinking about you sent me way back
I don't like it so I don't think that

[Verse]
I let the hate pass
I know I can't change the past
It ain't hard to make it
It's hard to make it last
All I sing is sad songs and I hate that
But I ain't happy and I won't fake that, yeah
I know I told myself I wouldn't pay no mind to it but I overthought it
When really, I knew it was probably nothing
Honestly, that shit just happens too much
If you hit me up showing support, I'ma show the love back
Yeah, but I don't think y'all really get it
So I'll make it clear, if it wasn't for y'all
Would've taken my life a long time ago
And I roll up my weed, yeah you know I'm a dead-end
What you expect? Bitch, you know I'm pathetic
I'm in my room all alone, you can bet it
Sadness can take your control if you let it
So don't let it happen
Smile in their face
Baby, fuck 'em, keep laughing
It's nothing to pass 'em
All of that hate, I keep brushing it back
I ain't fucking with that shit, tried burying that hatchet
But I'm so guilt-ridden
Know what I did, won't pretend that I didn't know
Still though, I know it ain't all my fault
Said she love me and then she left me on my own
(On my own)

[Sample, Softheart]
Every heart tears, [?]
(Ooh, holding the weight back)
And I can see your-
(Love fire, how it turns into a blank ash)
Sometimes
Sometimes you watch it happen
(Thinking about you sent me way back
I don't like it so I don't think that)
You can see yourself in there
And you're looking back
(All the way back)
And you can see the future
(Oh, it goes all the way back)
And what do you do
(So I hate that)
Keep making art

[Chorus]
Everyday, I hold my weight
Hold it like it ain't shit
Love it when you hate me
The pain makes me
Who I am
Hear 'em when I sing
She just replaced me
Like it ain't a thing
Everyday, I hold my weight
Hold it like it ain't shit
Love it when you hate me
The pain makes me
Who I am
Hear it when I sing
She just replaced me
Like it ain't a thing