So Grateful

So Grateful

Verse 1 performed by Redd Lettaz

I'm from the city of common sense
Where it's common to borrow a dollar with
No intent of returning it
Where mogs molly wop you for commas but once karma pour thicker than caramel
Ya ice and cream bring nothing but Sunday’s drama for church mamas to gossip
I could have been a product of it
But I got little and started scribbling since dribbling was never my thing
Could have went to proviso and pirated bling cuffing buss downs to fling this ding-a-ling
But God intervened and sent this troubling teen to So. Fla
Slept on the floor never the sofa
All I did was write, draw, read since TV was forbidden and I wasn't allowed hanging out, chilling
Life was a prison then, in came the resentment
Hated authority, in came resistance
But instead of bucking against it I figured twist it
Internalize so much I cut myself razor blades
Flirted with suicide so much I decided that we should date
Asked her out four times in my life
She never took me out, I guess I wasn't her type
Graduated, believing I was a demon because my imagination was tipping the Richter
And no one could get the picture that I was gifted they just presented Jesus as a fixer
Of what's wrong with me so I mixed the elixir
Of NyQuil/Theraflu to hush the insomnia
Didn't wanna be a druggy like my momma
I wanted to be jaded, I wanted to be dead, I wanted to be faded to black life was something I hated
I was confused, Redd Lettaz was Blue, alone with only a pen to turn to
Then God came through, I figured to him I was stealth
But then Hov was like, "Allow me to reintroduce myself!
You're not broken, you're wounded, you not crazy, you genius
Follow me, let me give your life some meaning. I love you and I mean it.”
Since then I haven't given up
So I guess I'm grateful God saved me and didn't let me self destruct...

Chorus

You might feel like
The world hates you
What you go through
It can't break you
See I been there
And I'm still here
And no matter what
I'm so grateful, I'm so grateful
I'm so grateful, I'm so grateful

Verse 2

The president wants to kill me
Cause I don't be rapping silly
And I ain't chasing a "billi"
But people hear me and feel me
I'm done with beefing and bitching
'Bout all the money I'm missing
From paying college tuition
I said I should've did prison
But nah
I didn't mean it
Had conversations with demons
They told me to fix the blues, that I had to focus on green, and
Promote, smoking and leaning
And slinging dope to the fiends yea
I told y'all follow my lead but
Me getting paid was the reason
Some days
I take for granted, my time and space on this planet
My goal was making the bands
Bought a house and I raised my standards
This microphone's an advantage
To reach the hungry and famished
You thinking burger or sandwich
I'm thinking purposeful anguish
The fathers are doing magic, vanishing making bastards
That's why the pushers got malice
Why twenty-one is so savage
Why little uzis are clapping
Why young thugs are trapping
We worship designer fabric
My words have been so passive
But now
My pen lights fires, I incite riots
The kids like violence
I clap heat, my friends might buy it
I'm like, four times as sick but I'm ten times tired
I'm growing like I'm on a French fry diet
I'm so thankful
Whenever negative talk
Enters my thoughts, my mental shuts off, and I use all the lessons I taught
So the devils get tossed
I throw away regret and remorse, and I cherish everyone I love and all the deaths that I lost
I never did floss, I mentioned my flaws
I was a common crook
Left the game, it got too feminine, I was kinda shook
Dudes rocking dresses, that's genocidal, now clutching a mini-bible is the one and only time I hold a pocketbook
...I live a life you can see God blessed
Eternal shine, I got neon flesh
I came back when there's demand, I supply like a Econ test
To speak to pill popping girls having E contests
It don't matter if the nation's divided
Or who your neighbor is siding with
If the lawmakers are racists deciding
On every policy, when all I see is a place to reside in
Fam, food, clothing, and a way to provide it, I'm so grateful

Chorus

You might feel like
The world hates you
What you go through
It can't break you
See I been there
And I'm still here
And no matter what
I'm so grateful, I'm so grateful
I'm so grateful, I'm so grateful