Bad Day

Verse

You told me to stop, You told me to listen
You told me to stop, the way I was living
You said to talk to you
I know that you're hot, I know I was distant
I'm working a lot
You always be bitching
I showed my flaws to you
Your phone was unlocked
I got so suspicious
It had me in shock
Your words to some prick
‘Cause he wrote some songs for you?
You been to his spot
You sent him some pictures
So the day that y’all went to eat, I just showed up at the meeting
Like, “What's up everybody!?”
I was drunk and ignorant
You had your mouth open, he looked like an idiot
And then he tried to play real innocent
Like, "We just friends, just homies, just kicking it..."
"Word? How bout I kick you in your little d--k?"
Patted on my waist like, "Do something!"
He didn't flinch
And you was crying like, "Not here."
So we went home. You was still letting out tears
Then you tried to say that I was really the blame for you hanging with this lame cause I was cheating for five years
Huh? You ain’t got no proof of that
Then you started naming names, and it threw me back
"So that's why you rolling with this doofy cat?"
Then you told me that all I do is rap
And you got mad
All of a sudden like out of nowhere
You showed me some flick of a chick like, "Who's this ho here?"
I said, "I recognize the panties and the bra
But the face got me stumped." Damn
Why did I go there?
Hands in my grill, wild swinging haymakers
I busted you, how you gon’ change places?
Getting all mad, I tried to maintain you
I had to straight shake you
"Yo what the hell are you doing?"
Then I asked about the dude, "what does he mean to you, what did y’all do?
This is our fortress, did he break through?
One wrong is bad, but tell me if there was...two?!"
Then you looked to the ceiling...
You can imagine my feeling
There's no emotional healing that could fix what went on with my heart when you revealed
That I was gone for a month and you felt like a dunce, cause he kept on trying to touch you and you always used to front
But he treated you to lunch
Then he treated you like dinner
When y’all laid down once, I was screaming
“What the f--k??..”
I tried to come and hug you...
You told me not to touch you...
The way you said you hate me, it was coming from the soul like plug two
There's potholes in my damn lawn
He told my girl come home with him like Cam'ron
You hit me with confessions of fire, I said you're lying, then you pushed me, you're mad strong
The first time you ever put hands on me, and then again
…And it happened so quick
You called me a selfish bitch, and I caught you in the lips
Open hand maybe ma it could have been a fist all I know is I was defending myself
You caught a fit
I never reacted violently
Never saw this side of me
Blame it on the liquor
God I wish I had a time machine
Take me back twenty-eight seconds and put my mind at ease
Or make me disappear, make me run away, make me try to leave
I was yelling sorry
I told you I was drinking
Things got a little foggy
Girl I wasn't thinking
I remember you saying, "You think you’re a man?
You wanna be tough, you wanna throw hands?
Hit me again pussy
Yea I cheated, yea he was hitting it, yea he was eating,"
Then you got graphic, you said something ‘bout his mouth
And I saw myself choking you out
Where's God?...
We about to make the news
I thought this is what people deep in love do
My father used to yell, my mother would scream too
Throwing furniture, to hurt each other, I was left confused
Turned me to a lonely kid
Sometimes I would blame her, thought she kept provoking it
And he had to tame her
I ain't ever choke a chick
Until right now…
I backed up…
I calmed down
Damn, apologizing just sounds stupid
Tried to put the blame on too much Chris Brown music
Nah
Girl I thought that we found Cupid
He hit us with his arrow
Lord your eye is on the sparrow
So how did you not stop me from just flying off the handle?
I was worried ‘bout the booth
But I got demons fighting battles, and they're winning
I was spinning, now my mind is so unraveled
Girl I hate the man I showed you, now I hope my show gets canceled, like, it's like
I know you wanna leave me
But I hope you can believe me, it's a cycle when you see me
Look my father hit my mother. Seen my grandpa push my granny
Seen my cousin and my brother look, it's all up in the family
My genes make me do this
You clubbing every night, girl your Jeans make me do this
They hug you so tight
I feel like a heathen
We was beefing, but that beefing could easily turn to grieving when blood is dripping and leaking
I believe that I love you but
Love is never the reason for hitting someone its deep and I really don't know the meaning
Got my eyes wide shut I don't wanna see you leaving
I would rather you just wait ‘til I'm sleeping and then get even
I'm not sorry that I did it, I'm just honestly sorry I'm still breathing
F--k me