Skin of a Drum

[Verse 1]
And I can't become my father when it's all been said and done
His completions won't complete me, I've divided me by one
I'm the answer to his riddle, I'm the caution of his wind
I'm the spoon wedged between tongue and teeth beneath his trembling grin
And I dare add my revision for I dare not suffer twice
And I dare not reinvent the past, and I dare not be the Christ
And I welcome any sufferer, and I welcome any Saul
Sitting in this room, on wooden bench, waiting for Joi to call
And I suffer here alone, Lord, perturbed by my every thought
How I've tried to strip them to the bone, I've struggled and I've fought
Every jealous warped intention, smuggled, sewn into genes
Every hidden mongrel tendency exploiting me in me

[Chorus]
Each time I put them under, but still they wanna test me
I cry out through the thunder, you storm right past me
I search and I ponder, I question and wonder
I roar and I thunder, please, let me in

[Verse 2]
I've been waiting here for what now seems the better of an hour
I've raised every crippled question from the dead and given power
To the absence of my sanity, the presence of a fear
That lies in between forgotten dreams that pile up every year
Up above the highest testaments, down below the wooden floor
There's a gutted room, pitch black at noon, beneath a hidden door
Deep within, you'll find the attributes of every sunken man
Who must bang his head against the dead each day he tries to stand
And he's standing pressed against the very woman that he loves
Kissing eyes and lips, embracing hips, surrendering to her touch
And just at the very moment that he touches heart to heart
She pulls from his touch, cause it's too much to mend what's torn apart

[Chorus]
Each time I put them under, but still they wanna test me
I cry out through the thunder, you storm right past me
I search and I ponder, I question and wonder
I roar and I thunder, please, let me in

[Outro]
It's so hard to be the man I would be
If hatred and fear no longer appeared
I swear I've become the skin of a drum
The heart of a man divided I stand