Shotgun

If I'm being honest
I'm gonna lie to you
When you ask me how I'm doing
I’ll use all the words we both know
You want me to

If I'm being honest
I've been thinking about the day
Where I don't feel anything at all
I don't fear anything at all

Imma gonna go gonna load my shotgun
Point that barrel right where it hurts
Ain't no telling where I’ll go after
Might not be better but it can't get worse

I cried out
In silent desperation I cried out
I called your name
My god my god
Why have you forsaken me?
I cried out, when my words have now abandoned me

I'm gonna go gonna load my shotgun
Point that barrel right where it hurts
Ain't no telling where I’ll go after
Might not be better but it can't get worse

And I could tell you but you can't imagine
That first breath from the edge of death’s chasm
You ain't cried like that since you come out your mother
Only thing holding back the great hereafter
Is bad primers, it’s good timing

I'm gonna go gonna load my shotgun
Point that barrel right where it hurts
Ain't no telling where I’ll go after
Might not be better but it can't get worse