Shattered Vision

[Verse 1]
Yeah I know God has a plan for me
But most of the time I just cannot believe
Uh, feel like I have to get it on my own
Working my way alone to my own throne
I’m so stuck up with my plans and dreams
That my eyes are blurred so now I cannot see
Worse than 20/20 the mist is so blinding
I keep on searching but I ain’t really finding
Spitting lines and words, I keep on rhyming
But that won’t do nothing if I’m not signing
Tired and afraid, anxiety gets in the way
Stressed over days, worried that I won’t get paid
I’m so mediocre in all I do
The trials are tough I can’t seem to make it through
But I don’t wanna lose I got something to prove
Wanna show my vision to the world and have them moved
In this lifetime I wanna do something great
But I can’t always just leave it all to fate
School, grades, and tests give me a fake rate
Tryna reach the date before it’s too late
Uh, each one of us was called to do something
But I don’t feel any talents so I feel like nothing
What is something that only I can do
What is something that nobody else can do
Shoot, if only I had the answers
I wouldn’t have to be thinking any further
The walking dead I feel like getting murdered
Passed away like another if I’m lucky I’m murmured
I want life, please Lord breathe life into me
I wanna feel that same feeling that you gave to me
I had it a long time ago but now it’s all gone
Tryna do things by my own way but it’s all wrong
And I’m not praying but always wishing
Just maybe my dreams will come true by hoping
But it’s selfish, I totally gave up my duty
For detoxifying and giving light to society
Man, there’s so much that I still gotta learn
I feel so useless from all these stripes that I have to earn
I’m getting headaches from these future thoughts
So now I’m locked in limbo feeling all lost
I really pray for peace to mind and my soul
Yeah, although I’m young I feel so old
A whole future worth of days is waiting for me
But I’m in this stinking house being all hazy
Lifetime prayer I really need major peace
I can’t believe the things I did horrible deeds
I’m failing and I can’t stop thinking faults
Yeah, so I might as well lose by default
Shaken from intimidation, I’m going crazy
Time to start learning and stop being lazy
But I can’t do it, I need some major help
So overwhelming more than I’ve ever dealt
I really need God to take control of my life
Starting to lose it I’m rapidly losing sight
Always reading Proverbs 3:5-6
Only way that I can relax through all of this mix