Shameless

Click click click
That’s the sound of my pen on paper
Nightmares comes first my music comes later
I laugh when people mock me because I’m my own greatest hater
I don’t pop pills but I drink a syrup
To get me to sleep
I hate myself
They gon find me dead and it won’t be no mystery cause I did the deed
Put a bullet through my brain so I’m the first
Cause they out to kill me I won’t let them succeed
I’ma do it first yeah you people seen me bleed
And ain’t done nothing about it
People claiming to be my friends but
Where’s your help when I need it, huh?
When I tell someone I’m there for them I’m there, My word is my creed
Give you a hug and you stab me in the back Yeah I believed
You when you said you were my brother
That ain’t a truth that’s a fable
Yeah you my brother, so were Cain and Abel
I would have lent you my life but you wouldn’t spare a peso
To save me from starvation
You were a demon in an angel’s body yeah you in for eternal damnation
Cause I don’t give you my trust no more
Fake friends take advantage
I’m not made of stone but it don’t seem to matter
Cause y’all won’t stop chipping away
Chip chip chipping just waiting for me to shatter
Y’all done it now!
You wanted to see me break?
My anger is something you can never be, cause it’s authentic you people just fake
Better the enemy known then the brother who betraying you
People spreading lies behind my back yeah I tried delaying this
This line of questioning I tried to bury it under a roof of false hope
Hey Caroline I’m starting to question if you were just playing me are you false?
Nope
See I’m too loyal to suspect the people I most trust in
I guess that’s why y’all hurt me because my heart doesn’t
Permit me to believe the worst but now y’all left me broken
Bandaids on my heart rip ‘em off yeah I’m done runnin’
You know what’s funny?
I defended some of you from abuse
So they turned to me, you ran off turned around and said “screw you”!
I took a lot of hits to the head in middle school
I think y’all done it now my screws loose!
And yet I still have enough respect to leave most of y’all nameless
I ain’t blameless but you betray me guess the “et tu” is ageless
I ain’t gonna shut up no more, screw the world, rip the bandaid off my mouth you feel this?
Truth bubbling out of my lips rip the bandaid off my heart it’s time to tell everyone what I really think
I will not shut up for a world full of snakes and traitors, call me Shameless