Sadgirl

She a sad girl
Lately been told she a bad girl
And frankly she don’t know where to go
She finds no acceptance no place to call home
Daddy beat her mama that’s a really hard blow
Self esteem hurt she never felt so low
She hates the feeling so she decides to get high
Parties and drinks and gets wasted every night
She looks like iron but she wanna cry
People so fake like the mascara on her face
Change up the pace
Told to learn her place
She feels a fury inside of her
It’s more than just hate
But it’s less than just apathy
She’s lost all control yeah now she an anomie
And she frankly don’t know what to do
She her own enemy
Left the house cause her sister done disappeared
She suspect her father she won’t come back till her sister reappear
Doesn’t know how to to cope with it so she just smokes another joint
Takes a swig expecting alcohol to numb her and it don’t disappoint
Society look down on her but she argue that society made her what she is today
Match point
She exhausted and tired
Finds happiness by injecting it by needlepoint
People offering help but she sees the pity in their eyes
Like they saying “You ain’t strong enough”
She know she can do it by herself, but then she gets off her high
Needs another hit, a little more, a stronger push to make her fly
She hurting everywhere people say all it takes is time to heal
But she feel she running out of time people fake she tryina keep it real

She a sad girl
In a sad world
Her own acts
Isolated her
She a sad girl
In her own world
Kick herself down
She just cries and curls

She supposedly free but feels stuck in a cage
Bars made of golden xanex and MDMA
Make her feel amazing but then she awake
Chased down by this poison she’s given into and can’t get away!
Caught in a cicle of violence and hate

She a sad girl
In a sad world
Her own acts
Isolated her
She a sad girl
In her own world
Kick herself down
She just hides and hurls

She can’t seem to find a relationship that’s not toxic
Love is like a flower but every love of hers seem to be rotting
Used to have a sense of freedom but now she lost it
If you fail try try again but every time she finds that’s not it
But when they make love to her she feel she making a deposit
Then they break her heart she feel like she up for auction
Thinking “Maybe this time will be the good one” but it’s not it
Investing in all these men but never making a profit
The cost of
Her trust is
She had a degree of innocence but now she lost it
Everyone mocking her just taking advantage
People say love is like money you gotta spend it
Betrayed so many times yeah screw her investments
If love is money she gonna lock it
Up
An addiction to find happiness she can never get
Enough

She a sad girl
In a sad world
Her own acts
Isolated her
She a sad girl
In her own world
Kick herself down
She just cries and curls

She used to be malleable like butter now that butter is frozen
She feels used by all like she’s spread too thin
Hears all these rappers racking up dubs but she can’t get a win
Can’t go back home the abuse is horrible and the outlook is grim
She look to heaven but all she get is judgement called out for her sin
People judgemental can’t see past her exterior
Hypocrites looking down and calling her inferior
She hates humanity, won’t let nobody near her
Looking for help but it seems like nobody there to hear her
Nobody to hear her…
Ey…
Epiphany
Shoutout to my home-girl goosyloosy for the cover art to this video