Shadows

[Verse 1: MANIK MC]
I'm billing up in Clissold Park
Kicked out the crib again
Every other night
Sofa surfing at a different friend's
Caring for your parents
Gets so hard tryna live with them
It's part of the life
Resenting all the time you have to give to them
Tensions start to rise
Divides growing bigger
They say that time heals
But time can't fix her
Start feeling anger
Know that you shouldn't be
Envying what others have
Wondering what could've been
Back up in these streets again
Traipsing through East again
Had to duck my yard
'Cause we gone and had beef again
She started acting crazy
Telling me to leave again
I'm packing up some garms
Walking Stokey high-street again

[Pre-Chorus: MANIK MC]
Ay yo it's me again, can I crash at yours or borrow p again?
It's just that circular lifestyle, had to get my head clear, had to sort my life out

[Chorus: MANIK MC]
It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim
And yeah it's only growing weaker
Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim
And when that love gets no easier
The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist
Or when you're trying to replace this
Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin
Aware of the time that's remaining

[Verse 2: Loyle Carner]
I said you wouldn't understand
Uh, I need my mother's hand
Uh, don't need no greed from no other man
Saying all he need is another grand
And so I snapped, she snapped back like a rubber band
Boom I'm out of the house, different couch
The same words from a different mouth
Uh, saying all we need is to spit it out
Cause she's the one I couldn't live without
Just another browning
Uh, they say I'm clowning
Trust, am I waving or am I drowning?
I can't stay, can't blame my surroundings
But can't forget the day that they found him
I could've move mountains
Uh, instead I stood still
I couldn't move, didn't look real
Don't give a fuck how you feel
It's too ill..

[Chorus: Loyle Carner & MANIK MC]
It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim
And yeah it's only growing weaker
Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim
And when that love gets no easier
The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist
Or when you're trying to replace this
Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin
Aware of the time that's remaining

[Verse 3: MANIK MC]
Sat in the kitchen with the lights off
4 in the morning and I can't sleep
Cause every time I drift off it feels like I can't breathe
Hear my ribs bouncing with my heartbeat
Then my vision slows again
It's like I froze again
Clutching at my chest
Feeling like it's turned to stone again
And then that image shifts
Sat up on that bridge side, spinning sticks
Trade my dreams for your secrets
Then that waves turn to static
Reminiscing on young MANIK lighting zoots off the matchsticks
Now we're determined and it's hardly planning
And if they never heard me it hardly happened
I'm standing knee-deep in madness
Trying to pull it loose
In the ICU
Hoping mumsy's pulling through, yeah
Hoping mumsy's pulling through, yeah
Cause we're desensitised, but we ain't bulletproof

[Chorus: MANIK MC]
It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim
And yeah it's only growing weaker
Crushed by the tide, all the while we just tried to swim
And when that love gets no easier
The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist
Or when you're trying to replace this
Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin
Aware of the time that's remaining