Self medication

[Verse 1]
I'm forever fuckin’ thankful for the people who saved me
At the lowest point in my life, when I would lay in a grave
With all my thoughts and aspirations that got cut from the page
And said I'd take the pen and pad and write my thoughts full of rage
Say it's kinda hard, take thoughts and turn ’em into bars
I'd rather sit and look out at the stars
Then wonder who we are
Or maybe who we could be
I know I've said a lot of things but now it's just you and me
You say 'I love you' but baby I think it's time that we part
The chemistry with you and me just ain't the same as it started
When I think about your lovе, I feel the pain in my heart
If you really lovе me, why am I still fallin’ apart?
It seems I overdosed on drugs and hear the bang of a pistol
It’s like the legends dyin' out and I will forever miss you
I hold this spot inside my heart for all the people who care
And through the ups and downs, just know that I will always be there

(instrumental)

[Verse 2]
I’m losin' focus, hope you noticed that it's part of the plan
I'm losin’ balance in my life, but you just don't understand
It's hard to struggle with anxiety, depression and more
I saw my demon yesterday, I kicked him straight through the door
Maybe I am a little crazy, I'm hopin' that you don't hate me
It's been a long time since I found a girl who would date me
And deal with all my bullshit, music or not
I'm self medicating with all the words that I jot