Seed of Faith

(Verse 1)
They said that your mistakes make you who you are
Well I don't wanna be me no more
Spent my birthday crying on the floor
And I don't wanna do that shit No more
I had nightmares
When I was five years
Bout the apocalypse now that shit right here
Feel like the devil tryna get me on his side and
I ain't got enough strength left to fight it
Aye can I holla at you
Is you busy can I holla at you
Are you open to me throwing all my problems at you
Can't I trust you enough to throw my mask at you
Let you see my face
Tell me that I'm great
Even if you think I won't tell me that I'll blow
Tell me what I wanna hear not what I
Wanna know
I had enough real life to last me like 3 lives
And I've been fighting since a kid I just wanna know what peace like
And why you Nigerian rappers never rapping on the beat right
Man fuck every body and they new shit
We don't give a fuck if your crew sick
Your shit get threw out if it ain't true shit
Back to the music

(Hook)
Maybe I should have a little more faith at end of the day I'll be fine x2
But if I had a chance to do it over again if change everytime x2

(Verse 2)
Trust is dead, i'm cautious now
Often thinking of less awful ways to off this now..
..and be reborn like I'm lost and found
..but you idiots losing your minds tryna hear the ultrasound
It's a vision, you stupid
It's sick and you accept a lotta trash like you wouldn't be sick if you took it
That shit is abusive
I feel like they looking down on a spaceship and looking up opening wide when the pigeons are pooping
Die and be fly as the soul of the righteous bunch
The self-righteous saying "i never doubted him.. alright just once"
I must have mustard the faith of a thousand mustard seeds..
..but i still feel crushed as weed..
..i should be wrapping in a joint..
..and I'm wondering if I should still be rapping on a joint
Fans saying break a leg, I have a wrap around a joint
Make me beg for your support, still nag about the point
My guy stopped rapping, he's flexing a new ride
Look at me,  nobody writing these checks for the dude, why?
I woke up feeling like I was destined for suicide
Music fans gushing over my ex and her new guy.
I'm vexing, I'll do five..
..of these pills every 5 minutes
My whole life flash as the light in my eyes dimming
Thinking of women who wanna smash cos I'm light skinn-ed
I'm shooting double digits but these niggas throwing some blank dice winning
I act strong like i am happy and that's wrong
Laugh is a mask on
Mask off
Life is a bitch, you ask where the knacks from
Turn around and she in your ass with a strap on
Try to tell em the truth and they say you complaining
Try to battle your demons and they say you should be praying
Talk about slaying the beast and they say you should just tame him
Sniper with a rifle and you standing where that shit aiming?
Why you wet? what the fuck you doing out when it's raining?
It's always your fault, it's always your fault you bitch
Everybody on some court room shit
I did all I could with what I had. ("Of course you did")

But if o had a Chance to do it over again id change everytime

(Verse 3)
Jay sold water to a well so it ain't far fetched
That I could be the greatest drawing from my depths
I mix the liquor, tears, blood and my sweat
Drown my own sorrows I don't need no help
I popped one pill i don't feel good yet
I pop another pill and maybe I forget
They say I gotta learn to live with regrets
Cos regrets ain't ready to leave me yet
Maybe I'm more selfish than I thought that I was
Only talk about all my thoughts and not yours
Hate going out I don't club I don't ball
Maybe I shoulda tried feel like I miss my shot love
I done done so many fuck ups I could write a book about it
I been running from my fears the confessions of a coward
But I'm bouta face off with the devil if he allow it
Face off was number one now they think I'm money counting
I ain't even gotten fly they say hope you stay grounded
I'm just writing biggest tree Tryna make my mummy proud
And this my monument before I die they'll write a book about it
Always knew I'd be the greatest it was written in the cowries
And of course I been getting anxious
Like what if they don't like it and they think I ain't shit
Like what if everything I gave for you is wasted
You only get one shot man I can't waste it
But maybe I should have a little more faith at the end of the day
All my insecurities'll fade away
Imma run the whole game set a pace
Pacesetter taste maker
Have a taste
And a Lil more faith at the end of the day
Imma be the pioneer of the online era
Imma be the mic jack of the sound cloud
U2 of the YouTube
Maybe I should have a lil more faith
And a lil less weed
And a Lil less wine
And a lil less greed
And a lil less fighting and a lil more peace
And a lil more us and a lil less me
Have a little more faith at the end of the day
That giving my all is winning me everything
Acres of land and a wedding ring
Couple businesses I can give to my kids plus a house where a President lived
And my kids play with president kids
And they grow up way connected than the President is
And me and my lady could smoke get high together
Imma buy a big farm where we could die together
Hide from the public eye
With the cameras applying pressure
Rap about it so much that I know Imma get it
I know I'm the best and that's why I'm near spitting any regular bars
He tryna reach the fans
I be tryna reach God
God
But if I had I chance to do it over again if change every line