Screwed It Up

[Verse 1]
I'll start today, making my way away
Who says you have to wait to have anything?
And I know what you really want, it isn't just me
That's what I wanted too, but you screwed it up, more than you can see

[Hook]
I want to wake up dead
Never feel a thing again
And I won't be scared of it
I just need to pretend

[Verse 2]
And I'm not even sure if I'm pushing, falling away
But your arms I've held onto are loose to me
'Cause the words that come out of your mouth is mold on my skin
And by now, I bet you regret ever letting me in

[Hook]
I want to wake up dead
Never feel a thing again
And I won't be scared of it
'Cause evеrything is just pretend

I think I want you to know, all the placеs that I'd rather go
Than be with someone who understands how I feel
And it hurts that you're so much like me
And I write words the way I think they should be;
As far apart as can be