Screw Loose

Everyday here feels like a war zone
Home lately doesn’t feel like home
He agrees when I want to leave
My reflection outlook bleak

Me and her fight out of the blue
I’m losing my mind, think I lost a screw
It’s 11:46, battling a war with my tics
They’re pushing me away and I’m getting pissed

If I hurt myself to cope I’m manipulative
Using their words as my shiv
I’m done hurting myself at their expense
Painting red on this white picket fence

We’re both at fault in this room
Think I’ll runaway to college soon
Cuz home is now just a bore
I don’t think they want me here anymore

My grandma's gonna call the police
If I hurt myself again
Cuz everyone thinks the only solution
Is being thrown in the looney bin
I’m not crazy
You’re the crazy ones
To think you can treat me this way
I’m so fucking sick of being done

Where’s the love?
Sick of the hate
I’m only 19
Fuck off with the berate
The world hates me
They all think I’m crazy
Fine, I’ll be the psycho
You all painted me out to be

Maybe my life would be better
Without me in it
I could be in a world far away
Where no one hears my legs meet my fists
I’m sorry I am the way I am
You built me a bridge when I need a dam
It’s not just a screw
My entire circuit board is loose
Maybe I’m the freak everyone wants me to be
Maybe the end is how they’ll see