runnin’ from it

[Chorus/Intro]
There's no where to run
There's no one to love me
I'm lost in life, lettin' go, but I don't wanna let go of you, oh
Ah, I'm lost, I'm broken down inside
I have to let you go, but I'll love you more than you'll ever know

[Verse 1]
I'm runnin' away from these things, I beat myself up on the inside
I'm hidin' these things, there's so much pain I hide
There's thoughts in my mind that I hide
I hear this voice inside of my mind
Tells me to end it, tells me I'm not worth shit
Tells me I'm losin' it all, and I'm the reason you left me, bitch
Look at my arms, I need a stitch
Past scars, try not to make new ones 'cause it's not worth it
But it's how I will cope, it's the way I was broke
I know you told me we was forever, but you run around like a hoe
I tried to stay, but you didn't 'cause I'm broken
Now, there's new pain inside me, it's been awoken
Lost the love of my life, I saw her as a token
Oh, I fight all this pain in my mind
You was all I wanted, all I needed
But you couldn't give the help I was needin'
Left me with pain, my family disappointed in me
Now, I'm broke
I don't know what to do, I don't know how to cope
I just cut to make it feel better
But losin' your life, it made me feel lesser
Madi, I tried to help, I'm sorry you felt like you had to go
I just hope that you know
That I'll love you forever, I miss you, there ain't a day that I don't
Even though you're not here anymore, fuck

[Chorus]
There's no where to run
There's no one to love me
I'm lost in life, lettin' go, but I don't wanna let go of you, oh
Ah, I'm lost, I'm broken down inside
I have to let you go, but I'll love you more than you'll ever know

[Verse 2]
Uh, Madi, losin' your life, it's the worst thing to happen to me
Now that you've left, I regret not tellin' you all that you mean
All the shit I had seen
I hid it away, it was to help you cope
I knew you was broke
I carry the burden of your death all alone
Your family don't care, they're happy you're gone
I know I should face it, but I'm too stubborn, I won't
Can't do this without you, so fuck it, I'm writin' a note
Fuck this, pass me that shit, lemme just smoke
It's a better way to cope
But I'd rather bleed, fuck that, I'd rather die
Wish I could meet you again, talk to you one last time
I cut in my past time
It hurts, but feels like it's right
I let you die, dyin' on the inside
I wish I could've loved you more, wished I could call you mine, fuck

[Outro]
Ah, I'm lost, I'm broken down inside
I have to let you go, but I'll love you more than you'll ever know