Role of a Lifetime

[Jason]
The hardest part is through
You did what you had to do
Put it all behind you, don't ask why
Why you crossed that line
You knew what you'd find
Trying to push away the part of you that knew you'd say
Goodbye

Role of a lifetime
Go back to the game you play
The sentence that you struggle to erase
Thoughts battle words over deeds
A war with such casualities
Fighting out behind a smiling face

God, I need your guidance
Tell me what it means
To live a life where nothing's as it seems
Spending days inside with fear
Spending nights in lonely prayer
Hoping that one day when you wake
Those feelings won't be there

I'm so confused because
I feel complete with him
When we're alone it all somehow makes sense
You live by "let it go"
You do what you know
Remember the word "forget"
And try to bury something so intense

You've learned to play the straight man
Your lines, by now, routine
Never really saying what you mean
Yet the scene can seem all wrong
Have I known that all along?
The girl who'd make me happy
Isn't that what I should want?

But Peter, what role do you play?
Are you a savior or a fate?
Are you here to damn me
Or to help me navigate this maze
Where confusion is a crime
So you fill your life with sound
And if you dance like hell
You hope you'll never touch the ground
What happens when the music stops?
In this silence would I break
And burn the bridge I cross
Or learn just how much I can take

So I drive myself insane
Spinning circles in my soul
As I dance around and play pretend
And once again
Reprise my role