​reminiscence

[intro]
Doesn't make a difference
I fucked it up, you'd fix it
You left, thought you would miss this
No lie

[verse 1]
Were you just a figment of imagination?
I can’t tell if this is legit
Ruminate on whether there was indication
Tell myself I’ll never forget
I was going left, you were cutting right
Play pretend
And shut down feigning peace of mind
And now we’re tryna fill the silence
I never guessed, but i coulda, right?
What’s to worry 'bout now?
Got shit redefinеd
When they took your life away
No i don’t wanna wastе more time
At twenty-two losing you made my state of mind
Something i’d hide inside
Embody strength for the ones who’ve cried
So i don’t think i ever wanna waste more time
‘cause now i’m through tryna prove i’m not fake sometimes
Guess i outgrew needing to feel your eyes
Under my guise of truth conveyed

[Chorus 1]
Now I know
To reminisce reveals the signs
(i couldn't see 'em
Go, go on reveal 'em, come on)
Oh god it hurts to feel sometimes
(eyes on the ceiling
Conflict with no meaning at all)
Just couldn’t read between your lines
(i couldn't read it
Fuck, it's so misleading; appalled)
Why’d i believe your “i’ll be fine”’s?
(i don't believe it
No, i don't believe in the fall)

[verse 2]
Got mites in my skin, Can’t fight from within
Despise who I've been, Can’t lie just to win
Your life was akin to light, lacking sin
Took flight from the wind, Held tight, lost my grip
Cut ties from the script, Lost sight, start to slip
Guard eyes with a sip, Keep tryna forget
Can’t cry, hold it in, Get high and eclipse
Goodbyes for a bit, Defy, don’t admit

Ask why, throw a fit
(I fall to my knees)
Deny, take a hit
(my hear rate's jumping)
Reply to assist
(300 degrees)
July came and went
(the blood starts pumping)
No time to exist
(wait what do you mean?)
I’m fine, I insist
(this can't be where it ends)
Combine what I missed
Write rhymes in the midst
(no I just can't comprehend)
Design don’t resist
(they're looking at me)
(get up, sit up)
I whine; pessimist
(my mouth hangs open)
(can't live slowly)
No spine, just a cyst
(keep trying to speak)
(give up; you don't even know me)
My mind starts to twist
(my voice stays broken)
(put trust in us)
Inclined to assist
(I'm falling between)
(can't control me)
Inside, fucking pissed
(regret for words unsaid)
(shut up)
I tighten my fist
(and disbelief inside my head)
(enough allegories)
Got eyes full of mist

[Chorus 2]
To reminisce reveals the signs
Oh god it hurts to feel sometimes
(don't go)
Just couldn’t read between your lines
(i couldn't read it
Fuck, it's so misleading; appalled)
Why’d i believe your “i’ll be fine”’s?
(i don't believe it
No, i don't believe in the fall)

[outro]
Doesn't make a difference
(to reminisce reveals the signs)
I fucked it up, you'd fix it
You left, thought you would miss this
(oh god it hurts to feel sometimes)
No lie
This no lie