Regrets / Starting Over

[Hook:Had]
From bottom to top
We countin it up
We never stop
All this work we do
We bound to get love
So put your hands up, yeah
We won't tell you what are plans are, yeah
Won't ever stop
Recorded a lot
Did this all for a reason we
Tryna topple these charts
So homie stand up
Getcha brand up

[Verse 1:Hyde]
Sometimes I think that every breath I’ve had is wasted
Failure so pungent I can taste it
I mean, I’ve had my moments of greatness
But mostly it seems like I’m spendin’ life trapped in the basement
Waitin’ for the day when someone shows up to take it
I wished I’d lived a little more dangerously
I wish I didn’t let my fears decide my life so shamelessly
I wish I’d wandered a little less aimlessly
Trusted God a little more faithfully
Accepted praise more graciously
And hate more courageously
Too many memories painin’ me
Every vein in me
Strainin’ to forget all the shame I see
Everyone has regrets, but mine are chasin’ me
The time I’ve spent in my life waitin’ complacently
Could have been out there grindin’
Livin’ life and shinin’
Could have been out there tryin’
But instead I sat inside just hidin’
Killin’ time and “survivin’.”
Countin’ ceilin’ tiles and rhymin’
Now I just wonder where I’ll be when I’m dyin’

[Hook:Had]

[Verse 2:Hyde]
I used to paint these dreams of a life that was glamorous
A couple million dollars in the bank, that was average
A couple million callin’ out my name, that I had to get
A couple million records from the grave, that’s that Lazarus
But dreams was all they were
And the hard work was a burden
And the art perk wasn’t certain
The serpent’s smart and he’s lurking
Sold me on the scene of a person with a purpose
But stole my motivation and made me say I already earned it
The target rotted away the reason I even started
I creeped and plotted, but never reached what I wanted
Broken hearted, fallen, but too numb to notice what had departed
Lost it before I even agreed to the bargain
Now I’m empty handed, standin’ alone on this planet
Damn it! I just wish I hadn’t given up on all I planned
I wish I’d practiced instead of demandin’
Worked my ass off instead of just plannin’
Just another regret that’ll never vanish

[Hook:Had]

[Verse 3:Hyde]
Funny how certain events can reset
Everything you’ve ever thought, everything you’ve ever dreamt
Too bad it’s so hard to repent
Regrets won’t relent
Tear down; prevent
It’s easy to regress
And start going backwards
Relivin’ the same chapters
But when you factor in the hazards of goin’ faster
Sometime’s the answer’s backwards
And bein’ last to heaven, beats bein’ first to hell
So I’d rather backtrack than have the worst to tell
I’m not the first who fell
Nor the worst to sell his soul to burst his cell
Then thirst to reverse the tale
I’m just glad to see the truth
Can’t change the past, but the future’s new
So I bid adieu to my milieu, so I can set out again with my path renewed

[Outro:Hyde]
I’ve wasted too much time chasin’ somethin’ I’m not
I need you to know that this is all that I’ve got
And I’m leavin’ it
And I’m startin’ over