​really did

[Intro]
"My aunts, and other people could see how hurt I was
And I didn't want anyone to see- to be able to tell that I was...hurt."

[Chorus]
I can’t take back this whole mess that I been making
Am I overthinking has my mind been playing games
Is it really that bad, is it in the past now?
Am I tripping, have I finally found out?
I’ve been a total idiot
And downplayed what I really meant
And now it seems real evident
Didn’t understand what I really did

[Verse 1]
Started all on a sunset one night
On the wall, pockets full and candy-lined
Talked to me about all your problems
And how you couldn’t solve em
Now, I wanna pack up my bags
I wanna wave my white flag
Cause I need to breathe, I need to see
Just a couple more laps, I’ll run until I collapse
Cause running from my issues is what got me where I’m at
I don’t know where I’m going but I know I’m going dow-
"We interrupt this program to bring you a special report"

[Chorus]
I can’t take back this whole mess that I been making
Am I overthinking has my mind been playing games
Is it really that bad, is it in the past now?
Am I tripping, have I finally found out?
I’ve been a total idiot and downplayed what I really meant
And now it seems real evident
Didn’t understand what I really did

[Verse 2]
Second Halloween, summertime memory
In the back of my mind like a documentary
Didn’t want to last like wintergreen
Can’t back out this time
Now I’m feeling like your enemy
Fucked up my perception of trust
And now a “what’s up” got me feeling like I’m getting brushed
Fucked up my perception of love
And now I’m broken into pieces
Trying to clean it up
Sometimes I don’t know where I’m going
But I know that I’m going down
I’m going down

[Outro]
Sometimes I don’t know what to feel
Psychedelic episodes, got me thinking it’s real
I can’t take back this whole mess that I been making
Am I overthinking has my mind been playing games
Is it really that bad, is it in the past now?
Am I tripping, have I finally found out?
What I really, what I really did