Reality (Interlude)

[Verse 1]
If I'm being real with myself
I don't know how to deal with myself
Baptized, chastised, I'm a child of the belt
Even when I was alone, didn't know how I felt
I thought I was so high
But lately, I'm feeling the lows
Every movement feel like my death throes
Liiight Yagami, writing in my Death Note
Swimming round feelings for women with the breaststroke
Let me tell you all the rest though
I can't lie, sometimes I want to die
Sometimes I thought could fly, tried to shut it all down like Gitmo
I had more up, downs than a '64
I been writing whole clips, hollow tip flows
Should I write a 38 and let it rip though, let it rip though

[Chorus]
I know I'm pulling away from
You with my every decision
And if I choose not to wake up
I hope my choice is forgiven

[Verse 2]
Watch me tap dance all on these glass ceilings
I been in that headspace where I'm in my feelings
Feeling chained even though my link is sometimes the weakest
My bag is the deepest, I'm gone off the deep end
Spent my last dollars on food for the eating
Not food for my soul, I fear that I'm tweaking
My body went cold, synapses not speaking
They firing blank like July 4th weekend
I need strength from the Miami's moon
I lose touch with my every move
I could cry in every mood
I've seen tears fall in a pool
They were drowned, went missing too
But I guess such is life, such is life

[Interlude]

[Verse 3]
Sipping tea for the herbal essence
I'm still at the point where I'm learning lessons
It's a struggle fighting against the weapons
But I heard none formed against me shall prosper
Set my plans in motion, nobody can stop 'em
I had to do it better cause there was no other option
This isn't me running, this is me facing my problems
Tryna solve em, get to the causes my nigga
A brand new view like the goggles got bigger
So I'm tryna eat good watchin' my figures
Like that

[Outro]
See it's an upside
When you turn around
And you cook up
Gone and look up
To the sky