Realistic Uncertainty

I am so broken
My heart and mind are a dark abyss
I am uncertain
How much longer I can live like this

Yo

Selfish is what people would call me if I committed suicide
But I'd just be killing the person I hate the most so to me it's homicide
So many mistakes I've made so that the hatred will always reside
My necklace is to remind me of the regrets to which I must abide

Kill me

Two years ago
I made the biggest mistake
The only thing I want
For my past is a remake
The stupid teenager
That always caused so much strife
Was so foolish he made a regret
That will last for the rest of his life

I was awoken
From the world that I thought was a game

Quick change the subject

My heart has spoken
But she think relationships are the same

Oh yeah?

What kind of high school relationship has a kid walk to her house because he had to correct a wrong?
What kind has a kid that would make her a song?
What kind has a kid actually care for the person she is?
What kind has a kid not be with her just to call her his?
How would being with me be any kind of threat?
Only one week in it was okay that you didn't love me yet

You are more gorgeous
With every single passing day
If you didn't like me
Why could you never tell me why?
I am uncertain
How this song will mean nothing to you