R.I.P.

I'm stuck in my head again
I left you on read again
I bailed cause I'm stressed again
I'm trapped in my head

I know that I'm struggling when
I'm toasted for days on end
I typed out text saying"I need my friends"
But I can't hit send

What can I say?
I hope that I cope and I don't drag you down with me
I'm running in place
But I'm tripping, I'm slipping, I'm bending my legs till they break

I don't take chances
Collateral damage
Makes me anxious
I'd rather just push you away

Don't understand it
My brand of manic
Random panic
Convinced that you don't wanna stay

Yuh

I'm stuck in my head again
I left you on read again
I bailed cause I'm stressed again
I'm trapped in my head

I know that I'm struggling when
I'm toasted for days on end
I typed out text saying"I need my friends"
But I can't hit send

It gets so ugly when
I'm everything you've got
And you're so fucking hungry
For everything I'm not

What can I say?
I'm coping by smoking
I'm choking on bliss from a J

I'm running in place
I'm binging addictions
I'm going nonverbal for days

I don't take chances
Collateral damage
Makes me anxious
I'd rather just push you away

Don't understand it
My brand of manic
Random panic
Convinced that you don't wanna stay

You don't wanna stay
You don't wanna stay
You don't wanna stay
You don't wanna