Pills

I've been pissing life away
Telling myself I hate the way
That I breathe
And I need
Everyone that ain't around me

And I don't wanna know
If in six months I'm all alone
Cause I hope
That I've grown
I remember just one year ago

I was drinking til my liver hurt
Smiling like it was so rehearsed
And I always seemed to choke up on my words

I hope today
I get the dosage right
And I think I might

I take pills as pink
As the sky behind my eyes
Cause I'm trying to smile

I've been pissing life away
And I fucking hate the way
That I'm mean
Kind words unclear
They all drip with fake sincerity

I was drinking til my liver hurt
You would tell me that you're so concerned
But I never could believe a single word
(You said to me)

Now I'm smoking til my lungs are toast
Need a THC overdose
Cause I can never seem to sleep
When I need it most

(one- two- one two three four!)

I hope today
I get the dosage right
And I think I might

I take pills as pink
As the sky behind my eyes
Cause I'm trying to smile

300 milligrams
Sounds like such a fucking drag
But I swear that it's not half as bad
As the doubts inside my head

I hope today
I get the dosage right
And I think I might

I'm done pissing life away
Telling myself I hate the way
That I breathe
And I need

I hope today
I get the dosage right
And I think I might

I take pills as pink
As the sky behind my eyes
Cause I'm trying to smile

300 milligrams
Sounds like such a fucking drag
But I swear that it's not half as bad
As the doubts inside my head

I hope today
I get the dosage right
And I think I might
I think I might