PRELUDE TO MY FALL

[Hook]
I hate the way that i treat myself
I know i need it i never ask for help
I don’t open up retreat into my shell
I blame it all on you when i should blame
Myself
I cannot pretend i don’t need a pick me up
I just take these feelings and try to bottle them up
And it never helps it just fucks me up
Backseat of the uber got me throwing up

[Verse 1]
Cause i cannot drive without thinking about crashing it
The story of my life became a background in my own movie
Mad at myself i hate the situations i’m placed in
Daddy taught me how to swim by just pushing me in
I don’t have support to push me in the right direction
Only have my people hold my head above the water
It’s cause i push them all away when i’m not feeling right
How can i be mad at her for fucking up my life

There’s not a lot to begin with
I feel like i’m unfinished
Pieces of my personality just won’t fit in
Questions with no answers will i ever get it right
Eventually i’ll get it but for now i need some time

[Bridge]
This neglect that i put myself through
Is a prelude to my fall
Will i ever get the timing right
To give you my all

[Hook]
I hate the way that i treat myself
I know i need it i never ask for help
I don’t open up retreat into my shell
I blame it all on you when i should blame
Myself
I cannot pretend i don’t need a pick me up
I just take these feelings and try to bottle them up
And it never helps it just fucks me up
Backseat of the uber got me throwing up

[Verse 2]
Bottled up feelings got me acting like i’m crazy
Late at night the memories that keep me up are hazy
Calling out for someone that i know could never save me
You changed once but in the long run it changed me
Pain in my heart that won’t ever go away
Cause i know i really loved her but i had to walk away
Looking forward to a brighter day when i can be okay
But for now let me grieve promise i can bounce back