Power Down

[Verse]
When I was a kid I thought was gonna be perfect
But then the bad thoughts kicked in and it started hurting
Every night in my bed, my body tossing and turning
Wondering if people thought if I was actually worth it
I pick out the imperfections I see in my self
Thinking back to the mistakes I made back in good health
People are saying I use my mental situation as an excuse/
To get what I want/
I knew they were wrong/
But I didn't feel right/
My friend told me there father drank a lot
They told me he did it to get some depression gone
So I said "aight I'd try it out tonight"
"and we could try it at my place"
He said it was "alright"
So we dipped into some boos
We drank it like a kid drinking juice
He said "he had go, he didn't want his dad's football team to lose
But tomorrow we can get even more loose"
But then the day I woke the bathroom floor
Somehow there was no knocking on the door
But but I can't get up I was to still
And then I had enough and told my friend "this was to ill"
"maybe you could get me a new pill"
He said "don't worry man I got the perfect stuff"
"I'll give it to you tomorrow, if you meet me at lunch"
I told him "alright homie, I sure will"
At that time we said I met him in the school
I looked at it and asked "what is this dude"
He told me to relax and it was just to snoot
But I still had to keep it hidden in my room
I still decided to keep all of the boos
Maybe one day it come to me of use
But when they found out the told me you don't need to
After that I decided to move out, with a couple of friends
And I hopped it would stop me being tormented
But my family calling didn't stop it had no end
So to stop it I decided to back to them
They found the liquor bottle from above the fridge
It's then I found out what the fuck this is
They told me "you really need to stop it this instant"
I told them "this is my choice now give me my substances"
I stormed to my room, and opened the draw
Broke the tables, and then had my snoots
Then it was time to have a quick draw
So I got the bullet loaded it back and then shoot
Can't you now just accept now that I am gone
This song and my life have one thing in common
You people didn't know any of my pain
I wish I never put a bullet in the back of my brain