“PERMADEATH” is about a reflection of your child self standing at the foot of your deathbed following a suicide attempt, questioning everything that led up to that decision and whether it was worth it or not. You had to break the news to your younger self that things never got better.
[Intro]
これは彼女と私だけが知っている話です
二の世界の秘密の物語
[Verse 1]
I watched a man die last night
Shoveled pills but they couldn’t even keep him alive
And when I saw my reflection in those empty eyes
I bit my tongue
And he said:
“Boy, it seems I’ve finally reached my time;
The gross unknown, the twisted blurry lines”
And I couldn’t help but stand there, stone and petrified
I wish I’d said goodbye
[Verse 2]
If I see your face again I think I'll fall apart
Conflated, left in idle stress, you found your way in to my art
Floating down the lake bed, tears piled in my arms
'Cause it all leads down to something less
We feel so small amongst the stars
If I die here wondering, "Was I ever enough?"
Deflated, lost the confidence to bottle it up
Falling through the mattress, fear boils and erupts
No lifeline can save me drowning, I'm giving up
[Bridge]
So I looked to myself
And asked “who the hell am I?
Was the death of who I was a noble sacrifice?”
Shoveled pills and then drank the liquid suicide
I’ll let fate carry me to-
[Outro]
And he said:
“Boy, it seems I’ve finally reached my time;
The gross unknown, the twisted blurry lines”
And I couldn’t help but stand there, stone and petrified
I wish I’d said goodbye
PERMADEATH was written by monikrr & Self Discovery.
PERMADEATH was produced by monikrr & Self Discovery.
monikrr released PERMADEATH on Fri Sep 22 2023.