Part Time Summer [c. 2014]

Ey, you know
I meant to get this out sooner but I just been busy
You know, I... fuck it
I need to let it go

[Verse: College Smart]
I’m dealing with the pressures of becoming a man
Trying to find the best way to make them understand
Cause I know that lately I’ve been distant, and I get quiet
Everytime they ask about my relationship with Liz and
Honestly if I had felt when I explain it they would listen
I would say it with no shame because I’d know I could convince them
But it feels like everytime I try, they’re on a mission
To intervene and tell me what they saw in all her pictures
So I block ‘em out, but giving up is way harder than winning
Feeling like LeBron with his decision
25, in my prime, when is it time to do me?
I’ve been looking at these pictures of New York for two weeks
Like it could make a difference, shit, I don't even know
I guess I'm trying to find a better life that I can live in
Like how long I've been telling all of y'all I got an album for ya
And it got me wondering how long can I be rapping for?
That’s hard to swallow, that's what she said
I might as well laugh about this shit if I'ma be stressed
But I don't know how much is left out here for me to learn
Mending fences with former friendships and bridges that I've burned
I guess I’m at the point I gotta let them all know
I just need some more time to grow
Don’t wanna let em go, I need to let ‘em go

[Hook: College Smart]
I think I need to let it go
Let it go, let it go
I think I need to let it go
Because nothing even matters

[Verse: College Smart]
I saw a picture of you and your future Mrs
And figured I'd reach out and send y'all my best wishes
And nah, I ain't fishing for no invite, just been a minute since we’ve talked
And this warmer weather got me reminiscing
Feels weird it’s been years since we kicked it
And now every time I see you it’s been cordial but it’s different
And I understand it, just want you to know this isn’t how I planned it
I’m going through some changes
And I’ve yet to get my hands around it
Shit between you and Liz?
To this day I don’t know what the problem really is
I know we did some things, I never said they were right
But dog, that’s the love of my life
I was running out of time for you two to amend
And I felt like I had to choose between my two best friends
Even though you never said it, your actions spoke volumes
And at that point, I was too stressed to work it out
I was confident I’d never look back and now I
See that house in my video and think about how I
Knew things had changed the same day we moved out it
Just two dudes, both too stubborn to do something about it
Responsibility falls on you and me both
I did some shit out of spite but I ain’t trippin no more
I couldn’t let it go, I need to let it go

[Hook: College Smart]
I think I need to let it go
Let it go, let it go
I think I need to let it go
Because nothing even matters

[Verse: College Smart]
You deserve more than another part time summer
But I’ve been working round the clock so we could be with each other
However, on my drive home I can’t help but to wonder
If I can’t straighten shit out, I know that you could find another
I know it feels like our time has been robbed from us
So I been sitting here searching through jobs
Something 9-5 maybe it won’t pay as much
But I rather I could see you when I get a day off
And maybe that’s the point when this could finally take off
We’re going on like 5 or 6 years now I think I’ve forgot
Not sure if I should count the times that's we fell apart
And still you've stuck around although it's been hard
Now I don't know what Dr. Oz would of called that shit
But to us rappers? That's a down-ass bitch
Wonder how many years I have before you get to thinking about kids
And get to thinking that those kids should be his
9 times out of 10, I don’t worry about other fellas
But he’s the one and probably a better fit to be wedded
So when I sound like I’m yelling, just know that I couldn’t help it
He’s a good dude, and I must admit I get a little jealous
I don’t want to be in the way of your dreams
So I’m let you do you if you can let me do me
And I promise I won’t be looking for a Mrs
But living in this crazy world, I’ve never been too fond of guarantees
But, have I told you why the caged bird sings?
I’ve always tried to give you all the space you need
But now that we’re older, I think I’m figuring out
Not every bird is trying to fly their way out
Hey, hey, do you agree?
It’s been a long time coming, this thing between you and me
I can’t let it go
I’ll never let it go

[Hook: College Smart]
I think I need to let it go
Let it go, let it go
I think I need to let it go
Because nothing even matters