Part I [EGO]

[Verse 1:chicagozer0311]
They mock you for choosing therapy
Tell em if you opened your ears not your mouth and listened you'd had been there for me
Reflection the regression hinders my progression
My past self stares at me I'm just a version of all of us I am we
Trying to be a perfect father because I failed as a grandson
Here we go
Rebellious soul finally killing my ego
I'm no better than anyone horrendous friend apologies can't even mend
Mistakes I made all for attention nothings coincidental kill the instrumental

(Beat cuts off)
Made a career off of rap battles my biggest regret
Something I haven't spoke on yet
Even now try washing mcs on their track was it friendly competition or my ego in bloom
Can only assume the latter
Getting to the root of the matter

(dark heavy beat kicks in)
[Verse 2:chicagozer0311]
Being the oldest wanted attention found myself in trouble constantly in detention posting crazy things on social media kept me from reaching personal ascension
Let down my heroes not always being empathetic to things people go through
Selfishness I let down lao tzu ,(he'd be ashamed of me)
Chaisn notoriety and fame to be an underground star lyrical bar after lyrical bar about nothing let down kendrick lamar (he'd be ashamed of me)
Searching for purity my biggest obstacle and hurdle my own immaturity
Let down the ones that need us
Let down Jesus (he'd be ashamed of me)
All my teaching all my soap box preachings
Lead to this moment a battle as old as time have to hit Rewind the battle of the scorpio internal struggle rebirth and pain rennisance and peace I juggle

(Beat switches to gospel with chorus)
[Verse 3:chicagozer0311]
Yet with unforgivness for my past the pain I struggle
(Church choir singing:easier to blame others than blame yourself)
These are the things I juggle
(Church choir signing:easier to blame others than blame yourself)
Was a short man had a chip on my shoulder napolean complex made me be the first to throw a punch made me the first to skip out to tag at lunch
Made me the hungriest Mc in the city made me gritty misunderstood family woes
Can I gain power
Wash away my enemies strike down my foes
(Easier to blame others than blame yourself)
Only lord knows the nights spent drunk writing alone writing through depression writing in the dark
Writing with a flash light lost looking for a spark
(All alone) grew up around violence it became natural
(All alone) Primal rage inside fighting became soothing its factual
(All alone) Couldn't protect my mom back then bet I bust you now that's actual
(Easier to blame someone else than yourself)
Anger issues develop its a dark part of me honesty and acceptance the first step to healing (I'm healing)
Dark part of my history dad abandoned us when I was four I know plenty of friends who have been there before (I'm healing)
Ancestors history shrouded in mystery steeped in lessons and lore (I'm healing)
Looking for forgiveness God as my witness
Work in progress can't say I won't sin nevermore but I'm trying to be the best version of myself therefore if I decide to write or rap it has to be something that doesn't just move me but heals we!

(Play it in reverse it's the same result deja Vu the burden of human nature is at fault but we as humans incrementally get better as time goes on.... a song bird taking flight through the night hopefully this album is a start for us to get it right)