Pain Paints Paintings

[Intro]
LexNour
Pendo killed the beat

[Verse 1]
All the pain and the dead weight
That I've mastered is calling me sensei
I've been trippin' so much, I need free mind
Like the thoughts in my head are expense-paid
Every time that they look me in my eyes
They see anger engulfed in a dense flame
That could burn down a city of lost souls
And then circle the earth in like ten days

[Chorus]
You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address (Address)
I was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect (Connect)
I've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets
I been there and I won't forget (Forget)
I know what it feels like to get shit on and get no respect (I know)
When the people you love don't believe until they see a check (Yeah)
So I'm throwin' the peace sign
In the meantime, man, I must confess
Fuck you, man, it's no regrets

[Verse 2]
I'm off that
I said that I been that
I said I was comin', I pulled right up on 'em
And now I'ma spin back (Skrrt)
I'm in emergenc-y, dispatch
So when I arrive in the room I get pushed to the front with no kick back, yeah
You cannot minimize every second and every minute I'm workin' (I'm workin')
I see the tweets, but I know you ain't eatin', because you can't eat if you chirpin'
All of the pain that I burden is one of a kind and two for certain
Three of four, the most important reasons why my raps are sermons
Fourth, I'm learnin' to cope with the pain while I navigate fame
I paint these paintings painfully right on my window pane
The blood that spills is tainted, stained and filled with my disdain
The strokes evoke that burnin' flame
That circles earth in all my rage
And washes souls who've lost their way

[Chorus]
You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address (Address)
I was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect (Connect)
I've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets
You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address (Address)
I was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect (Connect)
I've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets

[Verse 3]
So keep checkin' (Please), I cut 'em like C-sections (Facts)
I ain't fuckin' with pussies, you come out the stomach and then it's a beheadin', yeah
We don’t relate, I’ve aborted the fake and the rest of you weak tenants
Get adopted or I’m drinking poison and prayin' to God
The birth is a miscarriage, fuck
Bitch, I’m a sinner, my blood is the paint, you can get baptized
I remember the days I was nothin' and I got 'em stored in my mind like a flashdrive, yeah
I see the fear in they eyes when I speak, and I know as I pass by, yeah
That life is a bitch and I’m fuckin' her raw and it’s straight in the backside, yeah
I make a move, they checkin' me on top, so they can’t get a ahead of me
Stirrin' the pot, I'm in the stud', writin' a mix and I got the recipe
My pain is the source of energy
No shortcuts headed to destiny
Ain't gotta cheque, don’t even check for me
You can get lost like an identity
My thoughts roam, my GPS is the pain from the past that I cannot heal
And when I write these words, they drive my brain to a place that I cannot feel
My emotions spring then fall, the seasons change and then reveal
That all my pain was just the focus needed, used to the steer the wheel

[Chorus]
You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address (Address)
I was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect (Connect)
I've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets
You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address (Address)
I was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect (Connect)
I've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets