Pain

[Verse 1]
It’s been a minute since I sat down
Had a good cry
Been so focused on my goals
It’s like I’m losing my mind
I ain’t the type to show my feelings
And I wish that’s a lie
Never suicidal
But I’ve seen death a couple times
It’s getting harder like my mama said
Hard to get some rest
Hard to see the path forward
When even my closest friend is dead
Damn, keep resting easy king
But you might still be alive if I was better at communicating
It’s devastating
But I gotta keep on moving
Oldest child of an immigrant
There ain’t no room for losing
No option to be choosy
No time to be clueless
Lead my brothеr by example
And this the bеst way I could do it
I ain’t perfect
Stressing, but I’m calm on the surface
Trying ‘a get my mom a brown stone
‘Cause I know she deserve it
That five star service
A better life, we trying ‘a tap in
And if it’s gotta be the death of me
One day, it’s gon’ happen

[Verse 2]
Me and my father never speak
We ain’t seen him in ten years
Some bullshit excuses
With some fake ass tears
Fuck it
I’m graduating
He used to laugh at my music
Now I’m getting calls
Diddy want a record I’m producing
Fuck opinions
Now I’m putting myself on
Some say I’m arrogant
But without it, I’m slept on
I’m guarded, no vest on
Got friends I should check on
I want us to win
It’s the drama I focus less on
And be careful of opportunists
They gon’ only stick around you
Just as long as you ain’t losing
Loyalty’s only proven
You can die from assuming
And it’s hard to trust a soul
In this industry that we move in
So we keep our family tight
Yea, we gon’ fight
Then we act like it’s all good
We searching for more in life, yea
I don’t give up
I don’t care if they laughing
And if it’s gotta be the death of me
One day, it’s gon’ happen