Oxymoron 2.0

Feels like the lower I sink it's the higher I get
If I think that I know I'm gonna try and forget
If I can let it go then I know that I found it
Trynna breathe it back to life right after I drowned it
That sounded like it's right but thought it smarter to battle
Cuz the brighter the light then the darker the shadow
Cause the flaws of my babble show epiphanies purpose
Spit with nervous conceit of inconstantly perfect
I should merk it and weep, avenge the sheep that I slaughter
Pour the poison in the well try and sell you its water
It's order out of chaos break even when I play odd
A grave yard shit filling crypts for a day job
They say God's quick but he's strictly out of time
I'm a blind word smith that had heard this from a mime
So ahead of my time repeating lines when I rap
Looking forward to new emcees but it's hard to see past my back
Won't believe in the facts no facts are bound to stay
Wouldn't say I need help lost myself but found my way
So I say to myself you (Two/too) have got me wrong
Lost to short hands dealt felt it better to play a long

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Yeah I bet against my self so I win when I'm losing
In a never ending plight that has been the conclusion
So I'm using what I ( right/write ) to show the wrongs that I felt
I'm sure of heaven's heights I belong to its hell
Yeah I bet against my self so I win when I'm losing
In a never ending plight that has been the conclusion so
I'm using what I write to show the wrongs that I felt
I'm sure of heavens heights from how long that I fell

The smartest retard I'm dumb sharp but wouldn't leave scars
It's hard enough to cleave through ya make believe bars
A jar full of trees and a sea full of stars
To starve for what I feed you can afford the free charge
It's true God's in me the freest captive acrid vapid
The rapid lethargic from hard ship of easy access
Completely inadequate advocate that ain't having it
Elaborate smoke reveals the hoax of the magic trick
A passionate pacifist you'll never get past my fist
We enlisted for the war a rickshaw pushed by the passengers
A mass to massacre bask in genocides for Africa
After you drink some more you'll find the crazy straw a catheter
Half of ya brain is off I laugh at ya train of thought
I walk on an astral plain unchained from the admiral law
It's the fragile core with indestructible shell
Making harder to escape when ya stuck in ya self

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Coal's the Oxymoron known to piss off people that I pour on
With happy war song pacifist beware my sword arm
Leave you caught on the shear surface of my purpose
Your fortunes worthless I came to entertain the circus
With free style verses pre written before they surface
Foul mouth spitting bars of soap instead of curses
Snatching purses outside Catholic churches
Built a house for the poor but on purpose I locked the door
I got the cure but the shot will kill you for sure
While she said she's not a whore as the cock slid out her jaw
It's nothing more than these visions of clear distortion
Cause I want to keep the baby after the abortion
The cradle can be a coffin I'm lost in my own logic
You're a claustrophobic queer to many years in the closet
Withdrawls during deposits I got it by losings it
Confusing it with clarity and saw the truth amongst the parody
Variably stagnant the ugliest winner in a beauty pageant
Rudely elaborate but I'm mute trying to dispute the habit
Moon walked backwards in fluid traffic
The elusive captive offered truces then execute the masses
Minutely massive unusually classic
I'm truly sarcastic inconclusive with a useless asterisk
Paralyzed spastic off balance for handy cap gymnastic
Walking passed saw my self prepare to run as I lapped it
Talk backwards rovalf laitneulfni crafted
Blasted silence louder then hells dooms day sirens
Rebel alliance micro science dwarfing giants
Defiance offering that was forcing compliance
For the violent submitter I'm a bitter Indian giver
It's that cotton mouth spitter dying of thirst by the river
The commiters repute of the most resolute quitter
It's the pitcher at bat with an axe to hit ya splitter

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