overdraft

[Verse: SOLARIA]
Most of my cheque every month goes to my debt
Of impulses, emergencies
And things I don't know yet
The amount I owe doesn't go down at all
All I can do is watch my savings fall
Time after time, I wonder how I can save myself
I've made so many mistakes, can it even be helped?
If I drop dead, I'll ruin my family's financial health
So, I gotta stay alive, even if suicide's
Inevitable for the self

[Chorus: SOLARIA]
And to my credit
I screwed up worse than anybody else could have
And to my credit
I ran so far ahead that there's no turning back
Now all I can do is flip a card
Take the symbolism it shows to heart and pray
And to my credit
I've come back from worse and maybe it'll be fine
And to my credit
I know what I've done wrong after taking my cards online
Now I know no one can know what's wrong
If I just go and shove them all away

[Verse: socks.]
Why do I lower my pace
To placate bottom lines
Lose hope and lose all my space
To keep my pride alive
I think I've got blood on my face
From all the falls I've taken
Wipe it, and leave with no trace
And see the sun awaken
If I need money to keep myself safe
Then why do I wanna waste it?
If healing magic's supposed to be sweet
Then how come I never taste it?
I just can't ever agree with myself
Or check on my student loans
I might ignore all the offers for help
And just spend the night alone

[Verse: SOLARIA]
Bankruptcy, insolvency, how's your credit check?
Packages, delivery, man I'm such a wreck
If your mental health is through the ringer
Just add to cart
Gender affirming clothing
To heal my soul and heart
I got ten dollars to my name, all my savings were in vain
Have to shoot down hangouts 'cause my bank is in pain
Another sudden bill to the door in my name
Pretend I don't notice to keep myself sane (and to my credit)

[Chorus: SOLARIA]
I've come back from worse and maybe it'll be fine
And to my credit
I know what I've done wrong after taking my cards online
Now I know no one can know what's wrong
If I just go and shove them all away