One Way Street (H20 freestyle)

[Verse]
It’s hard to see myself through this mirror crack
I believe in Hell, I’ve been there and back
Once you hear the facts about my near collapse, it’ll be
Plain to see why I place my dreams on the clearance rack
Disappearing act, no magician’s assistant
We’re told we can live to a limit, but that shit is a gimmick
It’s a point that you missed, I’m dismissed as a cynic, I find it
Funny time is money yet you want me to give you a minute
I ain’t got that time to spend unless you defined as friend
Then I’d take your place in the lion’s den and meet my violent end
Treat this rhyme as a final gem that I can send
Never bail, you only fail if you fail to rise again
I prevail through trials and tribulations
Miles of situations a child shouldn’t be placed in
Mitigation of style, denial of information, you know
These Masons are vile ‘cause they defile our liberation
I’ve compiled some inspiration but it seems I dream in vain
I need the pain, so please refrain from believing that we bleed the same
I seem insane ‘cause they don’t believe my claims that I’ve
Seen the rain, and it wasn’t even when the seasons changed
For measly gains, I’ll leap through flames and walk with monsters
Hitting corporate sponsors with foreign objects ‘cause they more than pompous
There’s a war going on inside my morbid conscious
A moral conflict, best to brace yourself like an orthodontist
Get more obnoxious when I start to feel some e-motions
Surround the East Coast in a cloud of weed smoke, now we floating
Ain’t a man I wouldn’t brawl, a wall I wouldn’t breach open
I’d bleed oceans if it’s for sowing the seeds so they keep growing
Have a unique notion the truth should be spoken but what’s
On screen rolls our mind through the gutter like Wii Bowling
Give ‘em the heave ho, it’s these hoes we steamrolling
Like you gon’ see me blow, they mean the CEO they deep-throating
Leave it alone, negativity is death’s servant
I keep my eye on the prize not the lies that I let blur it
I expect deterrence, they can censor it. I just
Stay grounded and let the positive energy flow like direct current
Chest burning, the fire starts inside the heart, feel like
I’m aboard a giant ark, the last survivor of a dying art
Whether you a major chart-climber or a minor spark
There’s an all seeing spy we’re trying to pry apart from our private parts
Life is hard, you see the scars beneath the bars
Reach for stars at all costs, but when we fall short, we bleed and starve
I’m back to lead the charge, capture this dream of ours
Ironically, I found an outlet, but it’s free of charge
Best believe it’s hard, don’t complain, chief. This black
Cloud becomes rain and make the sun stay brief. I got
This vivid recollection that’s an untamed beast ‘cause it
Makes me realize Memory Lane is a one-way street
So I buckle up ‘cause I know it’s gonna be a wild ride
Chugging cups of cyanide, trying to kill the lies that lie inside
Having a diatribe with my dying tribe
Won’t make it out this life alive, got body bags under my tired eyes
Silent cries, constant consternation got
Me pacing like, “Have I been copulating with God or Satan?”
And even if I lack the concentration, I never
Stop connecting dots like a map of the constellations
I know I’m preaching to the congregation
But this shit just disrupts my deepest contemplations
My relation to my occupation is doctor/patient
Pulled my insides out to get a buzz, no Operation
Postulating like, “How could we feel redeemed
If our slate has dirt and grime that turpentine wouldn’t really clean?”
I heard the lies, they burglarize, steal, and scheme, but I let that
Bullshit I internalize fertilize my Field of Dreams