On the Wrong Side of Event Horizon

[Verse 1]
You know that everyday I wake up to a blue sense of feelin
More like blackness more life happens I been due bit of healin
I can't function in this world if I hate it more than life
I can't function in this world if I can't enjoy my right
Its like everyday is yesterday I'm going through the motions
I cannot say I want to stay I'm loco rollercoastin
If life is but a game then I'm ready to restart
Or maybe it’d suit me better if theres death or no respawn
I hate lovin, I hate livin, I hate mornings, I hate minutes, I hate boredom, I hate giving, I hate chores, I hate snitches
I hate everything except the pain I self-inflict like everyday
It hurts so much it medicates
I'm drowning in the sunken place
All this pain my heart hurts
Pushed into this dark earth
Everyone that I hurt l kill myself to martyr
I love more than life
No one does more than I
I got wings
I can't fly
What the fuck Is the point If I dream but I cry
Nothing has a purpose no one does
Who am I just a speck, just a pest
Just a bug, Just a mess, Just a fuck, Just a left, Just a black, Just a white, Mr. can't ever get shit right nigga
I'm drowning I'm drowning
Please save me someone save me
I'm drowning I can't breathe just save me please save me I can't
I don't wanna live no more oh god I don't wanna live no more
Oh god I don't wanna feel no more
Oh god I don't wanna live no more
Oh god I
I don't wanna feel I don't wanna live I can't take the pain no more
Just tell me when it ends I don't wanna fend I don't wanna live
I can't take the pain no more just tell me when it ends
Just tell me when it ends just tell me when it ends