On The Edge

[Verse 1: Anxious]
There ain't no way to explain what I feel for life
I'm feelin bottled up again, I take the pen and write
And this sick twisted life was designed to break me
Guess I never will experience the life i'm chasing
I've been beaten down and bruised, obviously abused
I'm so confused, all I wanted was a piece of the truth
That i've been kept from, and never to experience joy
And recently I came to realize i'm gettin destroyed
And I don't know what I have done to deserve this life
Now I have fallen many times and it hurts to fight
And if you fall, you should rise, but sometimes it's like
I gotta climb a fucking mountain just to see the light
And now i've lost the person that has ment the world to me
And i'm becoming what i've always been concerned to be
Another man with no prospects that can't succeed
I live my life settin goals, which I never achieve

[Chorus: Haz]
Is this the meaning of my life
I've always lived on the other side

Please God can you show me i'm wrong
Show me a way so I can find peace cuz i'm lost

I never saw the light, cuz I know that I
Was never ment to see the other side

But i'd rather smile now and cry later
Hope the pain will fade with time
Hope the light will find me before I die

[Verse 2: Anxious]
I'm in a war with myself and my thoughts of why
I'm always thinking 'bout the people that i've lost in life
And it hurts to see that everybody else is happy
While i'm stuck, and would give everything for just beeing average
And there's a surtain line to what you can take
But it's like I took a giant leap and now i'm closer to break
And everyday i'm gettin closer to the thought of death
Then maybe I can finally get some peace and quiet and rest
How can a person carry on and smile
When every instinct tells him he was born to cry
And all the lies made you weary and afraid of the truth
And when you finally realize that you have nothing to loose
I'm glad I got to feel what love was about
But when I finally get above of things i'm feeling a doubt
Cuz all the pain left me scarred so I don't think that i'm worth it
So I leave and later realize that nobody's perfect

[Chorus: Haz]
Is this the meaning of my life
I've always lived on the other side

Please God can you show me i'm wrong
Show me a way so I can find peace cuz i'm lost

I never saw the light, cuz I know that I
Was never ment to see the other side

But i'd rather smile now and cry later
Hope the pain will fade with time
Hope the light will find me before I die