Oh What A Disgrace I am

Unfounded hate, find me at the bottom of the lake
Why do only beautiful souls take
To your grave here's a promise i could make
Secret's safe, imma leave it in the bank
Worked hard now you get to take a break
I see through you, i can see the fake
A redo with you i could never take
Can't fake a need for you, never got to say
Look on the bright side, everything's okay
Everybody's fine and it's just another day
And you'll wake up every time thinking "oh what a disgrace
I am to everyone in life that i love and push away"
We're one in the same cause my state of mind's
Exactly like the ways that you describe when we always type
At night and i don't get to sleep a wink cause i turned out the lights
But you don't give me any chance to think about my dream tonight
I don't have a dream i gave up when i started living life
Push your propaganda on me i'm just not the reading type
Type but never send, you'll not respond ever again
Why would i wanna talk as friends if it's just means up to your ends?
You gotta kick me in my knees if imma buckle to the trends
I used to feel so small and weak and here you're saying it again
I don't know what i should believe the thought police are in my head
So now i gotta get my sleep so i can put these thoughts to bed