Ode

[Verse]

Callin’ this an ode
That would be a stretch
And I won’t write an ode
For a thing that
Still isn’t over yet

Go
Woulda lost a bet
Will our lives be at all like we thought
Were dreams all an overstep

Old
The older that I get
The thoughts of where we would be now
Are looking like jokes at best

The thing
That I would not predict
Is how grateful I’d be to just breathe
And walk around no longer sick

[Chorus]

Grateful for such normal things
Like waking up not full of dread
Unable to get out of bed

Grateful for such boring things
Like driving around a sharp bend
Not wanting go straight ahead

Grateful for such normal things
Like sitting alone with my thoughts
And not having to fight them off

Could that be the normal now?
Managing what can’t be cured
Was born with me when I was born

[Verse]

Is it really smart
Does it make any sense
Be beholden to the hopes that we had
While looking through a child’s lense

Back when I knew it all
But it turns out a turn for the worse
Was waiting just outside the hall

Scars
Dug tunnels in the brain
With the knowledge that there will be new ones
Made through my remaining days

Yeah
I guess that is to say
That no matter how hard that I try
I’ll end up back in hell sometimes

[Chorus]

Grateful for the time I spend
Every second of normal
Is like a blessing that heaven has sent

Changed the way I look at things
After thinking of death as a friend
I see things through a different lense

Who could know what life would bring
So I’m trying to keep it the same
And always take it day by day

One small step and test the ground
If it’s solid I’ll put down a stake
And keep on building up the house

[Outro]

Everyone needs
A reason to be
Especially those
Who can’t seem to see

The point of it all
Where’s the green on the grass?
What’s the meaning of life?
What’s so bad about death?

I couldn’t find
One clear reason to live
But that means I’m free
To fill that space in

No purpose to get
Means a purpose to learn
You can go out and find one
While you wait for your turn

Maybe life is a canvas
And I can just paint my own world