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[Chorus]
Done yet?
Done of scheming up the ways to make me upset
Make it harder than it is
This honest as I get cuz I couldn’t keep it in
I’m on my own
This what I need? What’s good for me?
I hated pills so I mixed 'em with some applesauce
So don’t leave, memories not enough
I see your face in the mirror, I see your face when my eyes shut

[Verse One]
(Yeah) Aye
(Yeah, okay)
Trickle like a raindrop
Top to the bottom to the roots don’t stop
This a cycle, pop a quarter, need 30 minutes top
Need a breather need inhalеr
No retry, I gotta live with my failure (Okay)
Empty spacе to fill, this a glass half empty
I was lookin' for the bright side, sun start setting
Door closed, start confessing
Candles blown, windows open
Got a suit you start dressing, pass down wasn’t blessin'
Wasn’t letting no one in, I was dealing with myself
I was too far to be felt
Wasn’t crying for no help
Heard them crying on the phone, can’t save my tears for someone else
And I hope you find your way home
Cuz we can’t find no one else

[Chorus Two]
Is this what I need? What’s good for me?
These days my hands so cold I can hear my heart bleed
Please don’t leave
Memories not enough
I gotta squint to see your face, keep you in mind when my eyes shut
When my eyes shut, how did you find love?
What did you think of who I was, where did you hope I’d end up?
These memories not enough
So many plans undone
So many words unsung

[Verse Two]
Saw you in my dreams it felt just real enough for me
Open real estate for me, old memories they tend to creep
Baby steps, the floor creak, walls talk, what they see?
Sharpie marks how tall, old baby pictures of me
Family photos how did we, come together with our flaws
Worked so hard to get this far, postcards to where we are
You over there, Arkansas, was over Bakersfield we gone
This good for us, this good for me, but the adjustment so hard
Was making plans they fall in place, switching summers from each place
Switching planes, we rearrange to make our lives work out this way
Short visits, then a gap
All the problems start to stack
How did I grow up so fast?
How come our time didn’t last?
But I got negative space
I got such a bitter taste
Mixed the pills with the applesauce
I can’t sugar coat the pain
These feelings never go away (Never, never, never, never)
I really wish you could’ve stayed
A little longer

[Verse Three]
I fell down, my first kiss was with the dirt
That’s when I really knew my worth, that’s when I knew it could get worse
I got a glimpse of my future, I really hope it doesn’t hurt
Really hope I make something out of the work you put in
I don’t deserve what I got, fam sacrificed ain’t forgot
But why me? I got this chance, I had the seed I let it rot
I lost my shine, I lost my glow, I lost the people I know
I lost more, I lost you, you lost the chance to see me grow
Make you proud was not enough, cuz I knew I could do better
Taught me how to be tough, so I still try to hold together
Now the pressure bringin' heat, my glue melting at my feet
Hold me down, I need you now, this ain’t the time for you to leave
I ain’t got time for all these feelings, life keep moving ain’t no breaks
Heard this life is what you make, so imma give what I take
The foundation you laid is the home where I lay
The warmth of that hug in my heart where it stay
I’m okay
The last words we exchanged, in my brain on replay
I think when I get my chance, what exactly I’ll say
If we ever meet again, I really hope one day
So forever stay the same please remember my name
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