​not really fine

[Chorus: portorosso]
In reality, I'm not really fine
After all these denying times, I've lost my mind
I always get put behind, having no place to shine
You ignored the signs, now my sadness is defined
So actually, in reality, I'm not really fine

[Verse 1: nigel naïve]
Overcomplicated, sedated, desecrated
The parts of me that you hated, outdated
I feel the shade hit, I'm not really fine
Wishing you would hit up my line (Look at me)
Wishing you would give me some of your time
Wishing on a star, is that who we are?
I'm not going far if it's not with you
Wishing on a plane, my towers' in flames
Crumbling to Ground Zero, that's the truth
Oh, yeah

[Pre-Chorus: Both]
Sometimes I feel like my whole world is crumbling apart
Sometimes I don't even know where to start

[Chorus: portorosso]
In reality, I'm not really fine
After all these denying times, I've lost my mind
I always get put behind, having no place to shine
You ignored the signs, now my sadness is defined
So actually, in reality, I'm not really fine
After all these denying times, I've lost my mind
I always get put behind, having no place to shine
You ignored the signs, now my sadness is defined
So actually, in reality, I'm not really fine

[Post-Chorus: portorosso]
Doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo, not really
Doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo, not really

[Verse 2: nigel naïve with portorosso]
You live in my head rent-free, it’s scary
The person I wanted you to be, imaginary
Couldn’t find a doctor to help with showing caring
I put my trust in an apothecary, that’s the contrary
Glass windows in my mind, I regret all of the times
When you said you wanted to be mine
I can’t help thinking that everything we had was a lie
I try to fight the feeling but I just can’t describe it
You tell me this, tell me that
But that’s something I can’t see past

[Break: Both]
I gave you everything (I gave you everything, I gave you everything, I gave you everything)
I gave you everything (I gave you everything, I gave you everything, I gave you everything)
I gave you everything (I gave you everything, I gave you everything, I gave you everything)

[Chorus: portorosso]
In reality, I'm not really fine
After all these denying times, I've lost my mind
I always get put behind, having no place to shine
You ignored the signs, now my sadness is defined
So actually, in reality, I'm not really fine

[Outro: nigel naïve]
It’s the process for me. It’s always been the process. Letting go is the one thing I can’t do because that type of shit impales me. So I write. I write until the dagger’s out. That’s my schtick...