Not in Control

[Prod. Niteryder]

[Verse 1:]
I got a dangerous mind
We live in dangerous times
Looking at all other rappers you probably won't find a life that is stranger than mine
They're telling me I should write a book well I guess that's what I am starting to do
I worked hard, I played hard
The whole time, we partied too
At my age, most people they start slowing down but that's not an option
Still feel young, there's a whole life I gotta rebuild, not a lot of options
Move to America, he's a character, name is Madchild, he's a rapper
My decision, I'm going in, cause I can't think of what to do after
I'm Willy Nelson, I'm Johnny Cash, I'm doing this shit till I'm dead
I'm reinventing and reinvesting till I become what's in my head
Don't got a choice, I got a voice and the audience is still young
I guess they all relate to me cause I did pills till I feel numb
And I know my music it helped people which helped me stay on the right path
But addicts just demons inside of us, they'll never leave, you just fight back
OMG, that's the right path, and this family it is brand new
And if I can come out the other side then I guarantee that you can too

[Hook:]
Doing drugs every day, you are not in control
Deceiving and running with demons ay, leaving you out in the cold
Making your come up from hurting your victims, that'll still rot in your soul
You think you got it together, I guarantee you'll spin out of control
X2

[Verse 2:]
My good friends was the most loving and evil people you've ever seen
And I love them with my whole heart but they did things that were obscene
Yeah, all of 'em murderers rolling in trucks and convertibles prolly ain't no-one that heard of us
B-M and two SUVs that were bulletproof with the top boys
Head on a swivel the eyes in the back of my head for the opps and the cops boy
Never went out, less than thirty of us with the dirtiest sluts didn't matter to me
Playing Russian Roulette with my cock in a bottle of Jack in my socks it was something to see
So many shootings and home invasions and mass murders from ill planning
So many bros, dead locked away i can't believe I'm still standing
I had shooters I had hitters that knocked it out of the ball park
But gangsters had quit and the fortress is broke, can't even go work at Walmart
What are they supposed to do, they only got one skillset
Their application reach two bids and they're thankful that they ain't killed yet
(amen)

[Hook:]
Doing drugs every day, you are not in control
Deceiving and running with demons ay, leaving you out in the cold
Making your come up from hurting your victims, that'll still rot in your soul
You think you got it together, I guarantee you'll spin out of control
X2