Alone

Sitting in my house, all these people in my home
So many around, never felt so alone
Staring at the wall, or I'm looking at the ceiling
Numb, it is hard to explain how I'm feeling

Blue pills, Häagen-Dazs, 7 cans of soda
Devil sitting right beside me on the sofa
Watching movies that I must have seen a dozen times
Photos on my wall of a life like it wasn't mine
My reflection's only absence
I can feel the reaper lookin' for my address
Known for breathing fire then the dragon leaves
Partying and bragging quickly turns to pain and agony
So-called brothers that were savages
Picking through my house's remains like they're scavengers

Sitting in my house, all these people in my home
So many around, never felt so alone
Staring at the wall, or I'm looking at the ceiling
Numb, it is hard to explain how I'm feeling
I don't wanna die, tryna find a reason
For me to stay alive, keep on breathing
Something's very wrong, can feel it in my bones
All these people all around, never felt so alone

On my way to hell, to heaven I'm not on course
Barely moving, a skeleton, I'm a corpse
I've turned to gelatin, everything feeling forced
Early thirties but I move like I turned seventy-four
Giving up, life's mission is aborted
Even though I can't afford it, I still crush it up and snort it
Or I wouldn't even make it to the kitchen
I'm trapped in a cycle and it's vicious
Fake smiles and pretend best wishes
But they can see I'm dying like I'm (laying in a ditch)
Literally I'm out there, middle of nowhere
Living with the fear of pain coming, I am so scared
I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for blood
I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for love
True definition of insanity
I'd be long gone if it wasn't for my family

Sitting in my house, all these people in my home
So many around, never felt so alone
Staring at the wall, or I'm looking at the ceiling
Numb, it is hard to explain how I'm feeling

People in my house say they love me the most
But I can only see the moving traces of ghosts
Walking by him like he isn't even here
Taking advantage 'cause his vision isn't clear
Demons all around Helter Skelter
People coming people going like my house is shelter
I'm feeling like my mind is melting
People all around but nobody's here to help me

Sitting in my house, all these people in my home
So many around, never felt so alone
Staring at the wall, or I'm looking at the ceiling
Numb, it is hard to explain how I'm feeling