No Leftovers

I distanced from a friend, felt she was always being negative
She’s dead and gone now and I won’t get a call or text again
Now when people call me with their issues, I’m just listening
Hoping they take heed to the wisdom that I give to em…
A week later I be lending em my ear again…
Draining my good spirit and my energy…
And I don’t like to judge what I’ve been through
I just feel if I got through it, then you can too
And I be having my share of problems, I promise
But I acknowledge my God and I look at how far it got me
Cuz I donе been through the worst that I never told anybody
Lord knows all thе times I’m grown wanting my Mommy
To hold me and tell me everything would be okay
But I know how people look for me in that way
I could never put that burden on her heart and risk ripping her apart
Had no choice but to give it to God

A lot of feelings I keep buried inside
And I just wanna clear my head sometimes
And cuz music’s my best therapy I
Write it down, then I say it in rhyme

If I had to sum it up, I’d say we had a run
No ideal love story, but we had some fun
You tried to teach me how to see it is what it is
I tried to show you maybe it ain’t all how it appears
Whatever people showed you , you accepted as true
I saw the good in everybody, especially you
I’d encourage and support you for the life you dreamt
Then you got it and you shared it with somebody else…
Even looking back on the times we shared
You were everything to me, to you I was help
Still there’s not a single thing I did that I regret
But not a single way you handled me that I respect
The signs were always there. So what did I expect…
The old saying goes love is blind, I guess
Crazy thing is after all the hard times and stress
A piece of me will probably love you til my dying breath

A lot of feelings I keep buried inside
And I just wanna clear my head sometimes
And cuz music’s my best therapy I
Write it down, then I say it in rhyme

A thin line between friends and lovers
Choose one and you risking the other
Think I kept a good girl in the friend zone
Had I followed my desires, we’d have been on
I watched her walk down the isle with a grin on
Got a good dude, all blessings what I wish for em
And they got everything I wish for
Plus I still got one of the very few people I’d depend on
Can’t help thinking I shouldn’t have crossed the line with ya
Can’t get ya to answer lines whenever I hit ya
And I know it seems foul the way that I did ya
And you should know that hurting you was never my intention
If it’s any consolation, know my heart aches
From not being able to make it up to you for my mistakes…
I genuinely wish for you the world
You’ll forever be my nigga, my nerve
What up Xay

A lot of feelings I keep buried inside
And I just wanna clear my head sometimes
And cuz music’s my best therapy I
Write it down, then I say it in rhyme