Murder Suicide

I kill all these rappers then kill myself laughing
That’s  a murder suicide once u figure what happened
I’d  never confess my sins at the chapel
When I die, my secrets are going with me, try and dig em up after
Though I...pretty much been an open book through this music
Love  and hate have been some helluva muses
And  my....strongest advice for the youth pursuing this
Never spend more time proving it than just doing it....
You  never gain time, only lose it
So whatever you blessed with, take advantage and use it, don’t abuse it
See they...act like they’re not, but please know they’re watching
You’ll see when they copy ya, then act like they thought of it
But  know that you’re the best first. Don’t give a second thought to it
Keep ya third eye open on moving forth with progression
Victory so close, you can taste it and wanna eat but
Don’t let hunger make you accept the bullshit they try and feed ya
Niggas is weirdos, it’s weird tho. They hate outta fear bro. Watch ya friends and ya kinfolk
You gon talk ya self out of thinking it when u feeling like they flaw as fuck
But God be popping up showing why you should never doubt ya gut
Niggas funny B, luckily I got a sense of humor
They shooting at my old goals. And I just hit some new ones
People and their funny ways have gotten old to me....
I don’t even care to know what’s wrong with em...
Plus the energy be eerie to me....Discovered most ain’t who they appear to be.....
And I’m usually quick to peep the enemy. But being blinded by love some shit just took me years to see
A wise man told me learn to live with regrets...
Years of holding grudges, I ain’t deal with em yet
On one hand, there’s flaw shit I can’t begin to accept
The other hand don’t wanna die with all this shit on my chest
I ask God to forgive when I forget that I’m blessed
I manage keeping together when I’m really a mess
A beautiful disaster...but I couldn’t be happier
Memories of my before and now I look at me after
Staring right at that reflection. Tell her u the best that ever did it, and u better never ever forget it
Almost let the opinions of desperate niccaz who beg for attention effect my decision of whether I’m willing to keep doing this or just be finished...
Well that escalated quickly...now watch this hell I’ma give em
Chilling at the top, i look down and tell em...
The elevator’s broken. I’ma make ya step it up on every level
Quadruple threat, bitch sa-lute a vet
Whether or not u respect determines how rude I get....
I swear I’m so done with that humble shit
I swear it’s fuk a nicca and fuk a bitch
I swear if u ever think to try and come for Nix
U better stick that out in the mirror and watch ya tongue lil bitch
Never show me nun lower than the utmost of what ole Aretha spelled out in that one song...
The last time I did right and got done wrong, I vowed to leave everyone else standing at the front door
You can’t come inside. And I can’t let nothing slide
And when u show me flaw once, no you can’t get another try
I’ve always had my heart in this battle with my my mind
They beat up on each other cuz they can’t destroy my pride
Which is all I got left after nan one um survived, they both died....and it was murder suicide