Nice list ... on the other side looking backwards

[Sample]
Gotta get to know each other again
For the first time, again
Gotta get to know each other again
For the first time, again
For the first-

[Verse 1]
This is just a list of things I know I should've done
But didn't have the confidence in me to finally make the jump
And I know this is an excuse to just admit what I've become
Shoot myself in my own foot
'Cause there's [scars?] and I can't run
And I know this is just a trap for me to stay where I grew up
'Cause everything's already there for me, unrecognizable
But saying this is just a way for me to sail out of this town
'Cause anywhere feels like a home to me if it's...

[Verse 2]
But I just I would've known I couldn't get back
All those years that I was chasing my dreams
I ain't even made no memories
I waste time and space, I won't get back
I don't even really know me
Every time that I get high I'm relieved
And when I'm with my sober mind, I've been easy
I don't even know what I'm like only me

[Interlude]
And I'm gonna tell myself
Gonna tell myself
Gonna tell myself

[Verse 3]
And whatever you want me to be
I'ma make the shapes that I see
Whenever you need, you got me
What's the newest tragedy?
I could use it as my own personal reason
To change these parts of me

[Outro]
Gonna tell myself
Gonna tell myself
Gonna tell myself