Next December

[Verse 1]
Last few months have been pretty crazy
My friends try but they can't convince me
I don't love you, nor do I want you
I'll just crash and burn like I ought to
And I hope you're happy
'Cause you can't say the same about me
I'm guilty as charged
And I had everything I needed in my arms
Then I let it get away
And I know it's all my fault, so

[Chorus]
Let me just bask in my misery
I know you'll never regret what you did to me
And I still have all the notes that you wrote me
All the other ones but I hope that you know me better
I just gotta learn to live with all the lies
Gotta keep on moving forward or I'm seeing my demise
And I'm writing you this letter so these words will never die
Yeah, I think I'm doing better but it's gonna take some time

[Post-Chorus]
Swear that I'll be better
Come next December
Know I didn't matter
But I still send my love

[Verse 2]
And last July it was apparent I wasn't doing fine
Always kicking myself 'cause I ignored all the signs
I feel so bad I let you get to me, you weren't in the wrong
I was the reason that we didn't go the way I would want
And I'm glad you're doing better
I wish you everything I couldn't ever give you and more
I wish I didn't let me hate myself 'cause now I can't stop
Can you remind me of who I once was 'cause I forgot

[Chorus]
Let me just bask in my misery
I know you'll never regret what you did to me
And I still have all the notes that you wrote me
All the other ones but I hope that you know me better
I just gotta learn to live with all the lies
Gotta keep on moving forward or I'm seeing my demise
And I'm writing you this letter so these words will never die
Yeah, I think I'm doing better but it's gonna take some time

[Post-Chorus]
Swear that I'll be better
Come next December
Know I didn't matter
But I still send my love

[Outro]
You're better off without me
I'm better off without you
Let's just go on with our lives
I know that it gets better with time