Never Cared (If I Die)

[Intro]
You goin' kill me, I say "Whatever"
You talk too much
Tell 'em shut the fuck up, before we shoot the place up
Wanna fight? Cool
Let me load my gun, pull it out then run, hey

[Verse 1]
Yeah, I’m lost in the shadows, where the demons play
Thoughts in my head got me feeling some type of way
Heart’s frozen but I’m burning in this cold night
Don’t care if I die, I’m just living for the high life

[Chorus]
I don’t care if I die, as the stars fade away
Got a bottle in my hand and my heart in disarray
Life’s a gamble, roll the dice, let’s see what it’ll say
But deep down I’m screaming, hope I find my way

[Verse 2]
Floating through the memories, they haunt me like a ghost
Friends turn to strangers, man, I miss them the most
Scrolling through my phone, but the screen feels so alone
Lost in my mind, now I’m living in this zone

[Interlude]
You say you gon' kill me, come do it (Haha)
I've been ready for death, not afraid to die
Ever since my baby girl A left me, I haven't been the same
She was my heart, my everything, she still is

[Chorus]
I don’t care if I die, as the stars fade away
Got a bottle in my hand and my heart in disarray
Life’s a gamble, roll the dice, let’s see what it’ll say
But deep down I’m screaming, hope I find my way

[Bridge]
Run away from the pain, but it’s always chasing me
Broken hearts and empty bottles, that’s my memory
Facing all these shadows, yeah, they whisper in my ear
Telling me it’s over, but I can’t fight the fear

[Outro]
I don’t care if I die, I just wanna feel alive
Livin' on the edge, man, I’m ready for the ride
When the music plays, that’s when I take flight
So if I fade away, just remember I tried

[Spoken]
I find myself compelled to put pen to paper, to share the depths of my heart
Hoping that my words may convey what I often struggle to express in person
From the moment our paths crossed, something shifted within me
The world seemed brighter, and the mundane took on a magical hue
All because of you
I still love you, A