Never as Good as the First Time

It's never as good as the first time
No matter how hard you try
You'll never catch the same high
As you did the first time

It's never as good as the first time
No matter how hard you try
You'll never catch the same high
As you did the first time

The hairs are standing on my arm again
And I can feel it in the pit of my stomach, it's finally the end
I've been around the world in search of a home
I've met so many different people but still I'm sitting here alone
I could hide the pain and disregard the danger
Finding comfort in a one night stand with a perfect stranger
And I feel I've made my mind already
I'll never see this person again, shit, she never should have met me
I used to sit in my grandpa's arm chair
He's been dead ten years but the chair is still there
Is this the legacy I'm leaving behind?
Am I too old to have a dream? Have I missed my time?
I'm not ready for this next stage
I hit my thirty's I thought I'd be the one who'd never age
I thought shit would straighten out by then
But I find myself even more fucked up as a grown man
And society's as sick as me
My perversion couldn't compare to the shit I see on tv

It's never as good as the first time
No matter how hard you try
You'll never catch the same high
As you did the first time

It's never as good as the first time
No matter how hard you try
You'll never catch the same high
As you did the first time

It's never as good as the first time
No matter how hard you try
You'll never catch the same high
As you did the first time

And every day I'm in a state of shock
I can't make eye contact, I'm afraid to talk
Sometimes I sit and observe and hear people conversate
And it's no wonder why me and them, we can't relate
And I'm feeling like I sold my soul
I know I said it a million times before, but shit I'm losing control
I can't let go, and now I'm sitting in court
My wife left me for another, now we're getting divorced
And I'm feeling like I'm stuck in a cage
I'm provoked to react, but demonized for my rage
We broke up for good and didn't shed no tears
We've been living together for over seven years
And I'm sitting here thinking of everything that you said to me
And best friends became mortal enemies
There's no chance we'll ever turn it around
It became a runaway train and then it burned to the ground

It's never as good as the first time
No matter how hard you try
You'll never catch the same high
As you did the first time

It's never as good as the first time
No matter how hard you try
You'll never catch the same high
As you did the first time

It's never as good as the first time
The first time
The last time...