MY LUNGS WON’T LAST ANY LONGER

I give up, my hope done left, man every day a cycle never ending
Back to my hole of blackness, hoping death come in and catch me
Misunderstood by everyone, this life i live ain't happy
These drugs won't keep me here for too long, bitch im drowning

What am i doing wrong?
What am i doing right? don't know
My girls parents hate me for no fucking reason and that goes to show
No matter what i do or how i say it
I'll always end up mother fucking crying

But it ain't over, I'm pushing till my death
I wish my enemies the best
No need to fight bitch i been dead
Thеse drugs done killed mе man, I'll hold my breath

I know how it feels like, to feel nothing
These tears in my eyes, been here since 13
My soul feeling empty bitch you don't know me
My soul feeling empty bitch you don't know me

Popping 600 pills under a week
Lowering my inmune system, i'm feeling weak
Everyday i wake up with a knife to my wrist
Crying hoping everything is normal for once
But it isn't so i keep it pushing till i get my shit together
Hopefully i feel better, i'm praying to satan, take me by tomorrow
I fucking hate seeing my bitch going thru too much
I'm feeling helpless
Too much depression
I feel the pressure, coming together
I'm sorry to anybody that i hurt
But this world turn me into a monster
I'm figuring myself at the same time struggling every fucking day
I'm fucking tired man, this life been a burden, and i keep on hurtin

I'm sorry
What's there to come?
Idk
I love you