My Lord

My Christ I don't believe in you
But if I did would you stop me from thinking?
I've got things on my mind, things what you would not understand
I've got things on my mind, things that need to be forgotten
I've got things on my mind, that'll stop you sleeping
I'm not trying, to upset you now
But you're the one who wanted to move on
I'm not trying to destroy you with this
I am destroying you with this
My lord don't stop me now
Even if I believed, you couldn't stop me now
This is all I know
My lord, don't stop me now
Even if I believed you couldn't stop me now
When lord, when will you show me the light?
All I need is to see your light
I'm not trying, to upset you now
But you're the one who wanted to move on
I'm not trying to destroy you with this
I am destroying you with this
My god, I believe I have found you
And you don't understand
And you won't for as long as I am here
But you're trying for me; you're trying for me
If I stop believing in god, don't you give up on me
Because this is harder than I'm showing it to be
When I take my brave face off, don't you give up on me
My god, the way I found you
With my words in my hands
But you stood by me
Gave me the courage to take on the world
My lord, I don't believe in you
But if I did would you show me the light?
My lord, don't stop me now
Even if I believed, you couldn't stop me now