(My Life Fell Apart This Year)

I opened the door
Walked down the stairs
It was snowing outside
I felt a glowing in my heart

(My life fell apart this year but I’m trying to put it back together. I’ve been trying to put it back together for a while now and I don’t know if what I’m doing is making any difference. I’ve just been working jobs and trying not to kill myself. How was I supposed to cope when the world spun out of control? How were we supposed to take the reigns when you left? We didn't even know how to steer! So I lost myself! And so did everyone else!)

And it still feels wrong without you
The summer will feel so long without you
The lights go out
We're living at the end of time

(Spiraling, swerving and losing the ones who we love is a part of life, it’s just the passage of time
When I'm twenty-five I will look back on all this mess and think I am worried for nothing)

I’m letting go
I’m letting go of your ghost because I have been grieving for over half a year and I love you but I need to let you go